Venting I just wish it was over

[chudeatte]

I feel like trash tonight. I dont even have a clear reason why, I just do. why am I even fighting for a life I dont want? I dont want any of this anymore. im just sick of it all. I cant do anything anymore to make things better, it was over before it even began for me. my entire life has been filled with suffering. I am literally less than human compared to everyone else, they all have it so easy when for me just waking up is exhausting. I cant eat, cant sleep, cant do anything. fuck my life. if I had a gun I would shoot myself right now, no hesitation. I wish it was easy to get them here but it isnt and im stuck with this miserable life for as long as it takes for me to get the courage to make another attempt. I wish I was never born, im starting to resent my mother for even bringing me into this world in the first place

 

[_Vasa&Me_]

Oh my gosh… I teared up a little hearing your experiences… I just.. goddamit I feel so bad for you. Nobody deserves to think of themselves as low as you do, for crying out loud you see yourself as subhuman almost… it's truly heartbreaking.

I don't get why must this world be so miserable for people like you, allowing you to experience such pains, such vile views of oneself and more, and the only people who can understand you are not physically there, but on some forum far far away, I just wish all of us could be more united or people like us be more present in our physical lives.

I just want to add that please don't think of yourself as a failure or weak or worse than others just because waking up is exhausting. Nobody, and I MEAN NOBODY has the right to judge someone else's suffering and downplay it, by this I mean you are clearly always carrying some extreme heavy mental weight on yourself, yet you still persevere and wake up, and in my opinion, thats some real and INCREDIBLE strength, idc what others think about it, I genuinely see it that way.

Most people wont understand just how tough it is until they themselves experience such pain, and you clearly experienced too much, and instead of being judged, you deserve a hug, and a buddy to rewatch Girls Last Tour (hehe yeah I recognized the pfp, great show btw) with that is there to actually listen and acknowledge you, instead of spewing the usual normie nonsense.

Idk how to fix your problem, or what it really is, but I sure wish it can be fixed, and at the very least, hope I managed to provide you some comfort instead of leaving you in the dust (like society has) and hopefully that means something

 

[badatparties]

Same. I don't want to be apart of, or contribute to this clown world any longer. This place is a low vibrational shit plane of existence. That's why people people feel so oppressed here.

 

[chudeatte]

Oh my gosh… I teared up a little hearing your experiences… I just.. goddamit I feel so bad for you. Nobody deserves to think of themselves as low as you do, for crying out loud you see yourself as subhuman almost… it's truly heartbreaking.

I don't get why must this world be so miserable for people like you, allowing you to experience such pains, such vile views of oneself and more, and the only people who can understand you are not physically there, but on some forum far far away, I just wish all of us could be more united or people like us be more present in our physical lives.

I just want to add that please don't think of yourself as a failure or weak or worse than others just because waking up is exhausting. Nobody, and I MEAN NOBODY has the right to judge someone else's suffering and downplay it, by this I mean you are clearly always carrying some extreme heavy mental weight on yourself, yet you still persevere and wake up, and in my opinion, thats some real and INCREDIBLE strength, idc what others think about it, I genuinely see it that way.

Most people wont understand just how tough it is until they themselves experience such pain, and you clearly experienced too much, and instead of being judged, you deserve a hug, and a buddy to rewatch Girls Last Tour (hehe yeah I recognized the pfp, great show btw) with that is there to actually listen and acknowledge you, instead of spewing the usual normie nonsense.

Idk how to fix your problem, or what it really is, but I sure wish it can be fixed, and at the very least, hope I managed to provide you some comfort instead of leaving you in the dust (like society has) and hopefully that means something

omg thank you so much. really, your reply means so much to me I hope you understand even if I cant express it well in words. im thankful you can understand and you took the time to write me such kind words when im having such a terrible night. if only everyone else was like that, thank you