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Darkover

Darkover

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Jul 29, 2021
5,649
I have exactly this feeling. The first thing I feel when I wake up in the morning is "oh no! I'm awake and have to live through this entire day :(." It's like a sharp slap in my face that makes me want to sleep or sedate myself all day.

I want to sleep forever and never wake up, to escape the pain of reality. I wish I could just close my eyes and never wake up
 
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matt1968

Student
Nov 6, 2023
128
Yes, I lie there for hours not knowing what to do.

I got back to sleep again for an hour or so the other day - it felt like magic then snatched away again as soon as I awoke!
 
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tarococo

tarococo

professional procrastinator
Nov 27, 2023
86
I know right, mornings can be unbearable :c
It really feels like no amount of sleep can cure the tiredness I feel sometimes
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,619
Me too- with everything you said. Being on this treadmill is so tedious. It's hard to stop yourself panicking when you feel stuck here. I seem to go back and forth between this horrible sense of frustration and fear with being stuck here and then, I try and calm myself with nihilism that none of it actually matters and I just need to keep going until I don't.
 
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Mitsumi

Mitsumi

Student
Dec 23, 2023
115
I feel the same. I try to distract myself most of the time to avoid thinking. I'm on autopilot.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,232
Not that I have the urge to die immediately but falling asleep and dying naturally while being asleep is certainly a good way out. I wouldn't mind if that happened to me. Would be the best and most convenient way causing the least pain for everyone.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,124
I understand, I wish for the same, to me waking up is always something very dreadful. I hate how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch to just instantly find peace from all the suffeing, to never wake again certainly would be the most ideal outcome to me, I only wish for an dreamless eternal sleep where all is forgotten about. It's just so incredibly cruel and horrible how we cannot just choose to easily die in peace even know we never even consented to being burdened with the ability to exist in the first place.
 
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fatty44

fatty44

Member
Aug 2, 2023
44
Worst part is that I'm starting to get dreams of how my situation that makes me suicidal gets fixed and then I wake up even more disappointed, it hurts so bad.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,316
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Kali_Yuga13

Warlock
Jul 11, 2024
743
I get that with varying degrees of intensity. At it's worst I call it a "daymare" - that same feeing people have in a nightmare transferred onto waking life. It's gotten a bit better lately, I've gotten better at talking myself down. But the reality remains that my life is all wrong. What ever remains is an undesired side quest but I try to make it interesting.
 
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Warriorsfan

Member
Jun 15, 2023
180
I agree with _Mori
But I do want to die immediately.
I'm sorry God!
I want to die in my sleep.
I pray for it.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
11,067
I have exactly this feeling. The first thing I feel when I wake up in the morning is "oh no! I'm awake and have to live through this entire day :(." It's like a sharp slap in my face that makes me want to sleep or sedate myself all day.

I want to sleep forever and never wake up, to escape the pain of reality. I wish I could just close my eyes and never wake up
I feel exactly the same. :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart:
 
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