I just pointed a loaded gun at my head

[Liebestod]

I was so close to doing it but I stopped, I have to wait a year, I don't know what I'm expecting to gain by not doing it. I have a loaded gun and everything.

 

[traingirl]

Is there something keeping u here? It's ok to not be ready.

 

[vig919]

I slept with my gun under my pillow just so I could ctb. Several times woke up and did the same as you. If your not ready your just not ready.

 

[Macedonian1987]

It's totally alright not to be ready. ctb is not something to be forced, it should be done only when things became really unbearable and suffering surpasses the coping abilities of a person.

 

[Owlers]

What stopped you this time, if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Liebestod]

What stopped you this time, if you don't mind me asking?

Cowardice

 

[MatiSendiri]

Man your profile picture brings back trauma in my mind

BTW, it's fine to be not ready for ctb. It's not cowardice, its just how your condition goes. I hope you can get better right now.

 

[Liebestod]

Man your profile picture brings back trauma in my mind

BTW, it's fine to be not ready for ctb. It's not cowardice, it's just how your condition goes. I hope you can get better right now.

I was pointing my rifle exactly like how Gleb was in my profile picture. #1444