Venting i hope he's happier without me

[emptymiku]

i don't know if my "best friend" even wants to be my best friend anymore. we haven't had a real conversation in a while, almost every time i message him there's no response.

if he really is never going to talk to me again, i'm glad he ejected such a disgusting human from his life. i hope he's happier when i'm not there to bother him anymore. no matter how badly my heart hurts i just hope that the happiness missing from me goes to him instead.

i care about him so much, probably to an unhealthy extent. all i want is for him to be happy. that's all i want

 

[Ethernatuskoi]

Something similar happened to me recently. I was talking to a girl online about 5 years ago. We never really got to see each other in real life and the most we knew was each other's names and where the other lived, that's all. I was there to help her and listen to their problems, in the same way that she was there to listen to me too, but this month i ended up loosing contact with her and i admit that i am really sad because of this loss. She was a really great friend, we had great trust in each other and she was probably the only girl who ever liked me precisely because i was who i was, that is, she wasn't superficial or anything like that and i admired that in her. But now it's over, i've lost contact with her forever and there's nothing more i can do. Anyway, i hope she's okay.

I just wish i had said goodbye to her properly before we lost contact. I would have liked to have said more things to her... i would have liked to have told her that i liked her more than a friend, but in the end i never had the courage to do that and now there are no more chances for my unhappiness.

 

[Rack.-]

i don't know if my "best friend" even wants to be my best friend anymore. we haven't had a real conversation in a while, almost every time i message him there's no response.

if he really is never going to talk to me again, i'm glad he ejected such a disgusting human from his life. i hope he's happier when i'm not there to bother him anymore. no matter how badly my heart hurts i just hope that the happiness missing from me goes to him instead.

i care about him so much, probably to an unhealthy extent. all i want is for him to be happy. that's all i want

That's not just okay, you deserve love and affection as well

 

[Serial Experi Pain]

exact whole ass mood...

 

[Enlighten]

It's good that you care for him, but you should always put yourself first. The fact he ignores you doesn't promise much good & might even give you false hope.
I hope you will find people who appreciate your care and reciprocate those feelings.

 

[F Sea]

Hi. Honestly, if someone doesn't love us back or doesn't want our friendship, the best thing to do is to move on with people who do love us instead of wasting more time with someone who doesn't. We have to realize something so simple and save our feelings for those who do reciprocate.
Best whises.

 

[emptymiku]

update: we talked a little yesterday, i eventually admitted i had depression