I heard that I'm going to die 10 times recently.

[donttalktome]

Doc told me almost 3 months ago I won't live long because of how underweight and weak I am, and that I look like I have cachexia. I'm below minimum BMI and lost half my weight. I have tons of undiagnosed chronic diseases and no money to treat them causing me constant unbearable pain. Also everyone says I won't survive Xanax withdrawal since I've been taking it for years and I take double of max dose which is 20mg a day. I have no house or family. I never had my own room or a single meter to myself, my family won't help me even if u cry in agony or collapse in front of them. I also have infinite debt and they'll try to put me in prison. I do not care about continuing existence. Don't care how much it hurts or what method it is. I will surely not make it to the end of this month.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so horrible what you've been through, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this extreme suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you search for.

 

[Kta1994]

I'm similar but my mom helps me so I'm grateful for that. I'm also very underwheight and in pain all the time