goodbye-to-a-world
watching the water unfold
- Dec 18, 2025
- 23
My niece is in a sketchy situation with her family rn. I won't go into details but a very suspicious religion (niche Christian sect) is involved and I'm genuinely scared for her. They want to leave the country but she has people fighting for her to prevent that. I have to live and be one of them.
I knew things were rough for her, but I didn't know it was this crazy. When she told me what she did, I told her she could talk to me whenever about anything. She gave me a "maybe" at the time, but she just did after getting yelled at over her opposition. She's been through so much already and she's so young. She's had her whole world turned upside down more than I can count. She's finally getting some sense of stability and it's about to be ripped from her again, the only difference is that she's old enough to have a mind of her own this time around.
She's a brilliant girl. She's finally shining. I'm powerless in the physical fight but this has been eating away at her mentally. I have to be the one there for her in that regard. I know the trenches. I know the darkness. I can't let her live through that. I can't let her fall to my point. She doesn't deserve any of this. I can't let my sister break her like she broke me.
For the foreseeable future, I have my reason. I'll remember it when things get tough. I can't do anything to myself without knowing she's safe.
I knew things were rough for her, but I didn't know it was this crazy. When she told me what she did, I told her she could talk to me whenever about anything. She gave me a "maybe" at the time, but she just did after getting yelled at over her opposition. She's been through so much already and she's so young. She's had her whole world turned upside down more than I can count. She's finally getting some sense of stability and it's about to be ripped from her again, the only difference is that she's old enough to have a mind of her own this time around.
She's a brilliant girl. She's finally shining. I'm powerless in the physical fight but this has been eating away at her mentally. I have to be the one there for her in that regard. I know the trenches. I know the darkness. I can't let her live through that. I can't let her fall to my point. She doesn't deserve any of this. I can't let my sister break her like she broke me.
For the foreseeable future, I have my reason. I'll remember it when things get tough. I can't do anything to myself without knowing she's safe.
she's very responsible and hard working. She's basically how I was before my mental spiraled and I don't want her to end up like me. I'm not a bad person, but I recognize I'm not living up to my potential rn. I'm working on it day by day, but trying to stay alive is taking up a lot of my energy to where some days that's all I can do. I don't want her to ever feel like I do now so I'm willing to drown if that's how I keep her afloat.
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