Discussion I have Sn and i only havent used it because my girlfriend will follow after me.

[Manic Panic]

I don't want to leave her but I'm constantly overwhelmed with my head and I want to exist any longer..
She's told me over and over that she'd hang herself if I took my sn and idk... does anyone have any advice on this?

 

[TheBondsman]

Maybe you and your girlfriend should talk to someone????
I totally understand her saying this as my son ctb 2 years ago and I am now dead inside and know that one day I will join him in the same way (SN).
II can't ctb now as my mother is still alive but one day I will

 

[deadbidaylight]

Maybe you and your girlfriend should talk to someone????
I totally understand her saying this as my son ctb 2 years ago and I am now dead inside and know that one day I will join him in the same way (SN).
II can't ctb now as my mother is still alive but one day I will

I am so sorry for your horrific loss. I couldn't imagine…I'd be doing the same if it were my child. My heart is with you on this dark road.

 

[TheBondsman]

I am so sorry for your horrific loss. I couldn't imagine…I'd be doing the same if it were my child. My heart is with you on this dark road.

Thank you

 

[deadbidaylight]

I don't want to leave her but I'm constantly overwhelmed with my head and I want to exist any longer..
She's told me over and over that she'd hang herself if I took my sn and idk... does anyone have any advice on this?

At the risk of sounding like I'm telling you to do it (which I am NOT!), you can't have an ultimatum like that preventing you from leaving this world if you want to. I know it comes from a genuine place with her, but putting that burden and guilt on you for wanting to stop your pain is not the right thing to do and is likely making it harder for you to just keep surviving. I personally think it's cruel.

If you truly feel like CTB is your only solution and you want to go through with it, don't let someone's words stop you. This is your choice only, and not a group effort. She clearly cares for you deeply and wants you to stay, but if that's what she wants, she could offer to get you help (if you want it) and not resort to threats.

If you're still debating on whether you want to stay, then there's still hesitation there and you should absolutely stay and give yourself proper time to weigh your options. It's not a race. If you're going to go, there should be zero hesitation or regret.

 

[Droso]

Unfortunately, she is going to do whatever she wants to do. You are both autonomous individuals. You ctb'ing is your own action, and hers is hers. If she ended up ctb'ing after you, you would not be at fault as that is her own decision to make.

If you are set on using your SN, let her know. If she is also suicidal, you could suggest going out together to lessen the grief. But she sounds rather impulsive and acting on emotion, so I would use caution.

 

[lucyanne]

This is an internal discussion I have yet to have because I know my wife would follow me and I adore my wife with everything I am, its the only reason I have stayed this long.

 

[Manic Panic]

Unfortunately, she is going to do whatever she wants to do. You are both autonomous individuals. You ctb'ing is your own action, and hers is hers. If she ended up ctb'ing after you, you would not be at fault as that is her own decision to make.

If you are set on using your SN, let her know. If she is also suicidal, you could suggest going out together to lessen the grief. But she sounds rather impulsive and acting on emotion, so I would use caution.

She wants to ctb with me once we live a long enough life together so either way I'll end my own life ... just after a lot of time