MicahBell
Member
- Feb 11, 2025
- 11
i've never had a dream or a hope for my future. not once in my life. whenever i become scared now that i'm close to committing i remember, what future could i possibly have?
i always did shitty in school cause i was so sure i'd die before adulthood. i hardly have any life skills but instead of being helped, people think i'm just stupid because at my age you're expected to know how to live. no one ever taught me how to be a person. I don't enjoy anything, i don't have any hobbies. seriously. i'm not particularly good at anything either. i have some family, but they were always emotionally neglectful, theyre not much of a reason to stay alive. they look down on me.
i can't connect with people. i don't know how. when i do, my personality drives them away.
i'm so scared of the pain of dying. i'm so, so scared of living though. even if i asked for help i don't think anyone would listen. no one noticed when i was so depressed i couldnt brush my teeth for months, as a kid when my didn't make a friend for years, when my mom learned i planned to overdose the only question she asked me was "did you ever think of your family?". we never talked about it again.
life is impossible when you're a coward. i'm too scared to live, and too scared to die. i've been crouched so long i forgot how to jump.
i always did shitty in school cause i was so sure i'd die before adulthood. i hardly have any life skills but instead of being helped, people think i'm just stupid because at my age you're expected to know how to live. no one ever taught me how to be a person. I don't enjoy anything, i don't have any hobbies. seriously. i'm not particularly good at anything either. i have some family, but they were always emotionally neglectful, theyre not much of a reason to stay alive. they look down on me.
i can't connect with people. i don't know how. when i do, my personality drives them away.
i'm so scared of the pain of dying. i'm so, so scared of living though. even if i asked for help i don't think anyone would listen. no one noticed when i was so depressed i couldnt brush my teeth for months, as a kid when my didn't make a friend for years, when my mom learned i planned to overdose the only question she asked me was "did you ever think of your family?". we never talked about it again.
life is impossible when you're a coward. i'm too scared to live, and too scared to die. i've been crouched so long i forgot how to jump.
