Venting I hate the city that I'm living in

[usernamesarehard]

Putting this here since living in this shithole is one of the many reasons I'm suicidal and want to ctb. I hate living in this city. You turn on the news and everyday it's 'this person was shot and killed' 'gang this' 'innocent person killed in cross fire that' 'pos shoots at public transport bus'. The list goes on and on. There's always some bullshit happening in this city. And I know, the news is there to make money and sad/anger inducing stories sell more than happy stories, I get that the news will, to a certain extent, sensationalize and over-report crime and murder, but living here, I can say this place sucks massive dick even if you don't watch the news. I don't watch the news, but I still know how dangerous this place is. My old car had a bullet hole in it because a neighbor's boyfriend was shooting on our block. Driving is miserable. There's too many assholes doing the dumbest shit, it's exhausting driving here. When I drive in the country I have a great time, people aren't nearly as mentally deficient, the roads are bigger, and I think the fact that people are more laid back and less high-strung also bleeds into people driving better.

I hate being surrounded by houses. I miss living near a forest. I drive a few minutes out of the city and I see tons of trees and beautiful scenery. I hate that light pollution makes seeing the stars impossible. There's a million other things I hate about this place, but the thing I hate the most is my inability to escape this place. I applied to tons of jobs in the state I wanted to live in before applying to anything here. I've been applying to pretty much anywhere at this point. I just want out of the city and to live in an affordable place, but trying to get a job out of state, especially in this shitty job market is like playing on nightmare mode.

I resent my parents for bringing me here. I understand now why we had to move, but did we really have to come to this shithole? There are 50 states 50 FUCKING STATES and you're telling me we HAD to be HERE? Really? I used to think this entire state was a shithole, but after visiting other areas I've come to realize that it's just this city. If you go 30 minutes away in almost any direction you can find really nice areas. There's more greenery, less crime, and the people are ofter much more friendly. I keep applying and hoping, but I just can't leave. I can't get a decent paying job out of here. And the places that are nice around here usually start at ~500k for houses. I make 60k, so I'm definately not moving anywhere near there anytime soon. I'm just tired and defeated. Between not being able to get out of this city and my heartbreak I can't wait until Friday when I'll attempt again, hopefully I won't back out.

Feel free to rant about the shitty place where you live too.

 

[Off_Switch]

It's everywhere. Very few normal places left in the U.S. Society is collapsing. Thank god we have a way out, before it gets REALLY bad.

 

[usernamesarehard]

It's everywhere. Very few normal places left in the U.S. Society is collapsing. Thank god we have a way out, before it gets REALLY bad.

Sigh, yeah, I guess so. I mean states with lower house prices have, surprise!, lower wages, so if you live there houses are still unaffordable. Idk how bad it is in other countries, but the US has been going downhill for a few decades now. I wish I could move. I totally get why some people move here instead of 'staying in their country and making it better there'. There's only so much one person or a small group of people can do, and when all the problems are systemic, there's really not much you can do.