i hate not knowing exactly whats wrong with me

[Awesomefoid67]

i wish i could go essily get domething or other disgnosed. but no one wants to disgnose shit. part of the reason i feel so awful is the constant uncertainty about whats wrong with me. i have theories floating around that have been suggested by others but like i constantly argue with myself sbout them in my head and i hste it. i'm so fucking tired of this.

lowkey i welcome anyone who sees this to ask me as many questions as you want and maybe it'll help me sort it out in my head but idk.

 

[sanctionedusage]

psychiatry itself can't definitively proof that a set of symptoms is one condition and not a slightly unconventional presentation of another. even the simplest ones. how can you prove that my general anxiety isn't actually CPTSD or stems from repressed PTSD? or that I have anorexia nervosa binge purge subtype and not bulimia? or BPD and not autism? or any of the above and not munchausen's? go to multiple psychs and they'll all hypothesize different sets of conditions. emphasis on hypothesize. in the end, it changes nothing. they'll always end up advising you therapy with a nice person to soothe you & a med, or multiple, from a variety of different drug classes. don't try labels; try treatments, starting from the least risky and the most likely to help.

 

[itsgone2]

are we all autistic? Seems it at times. Lots of range on that but you could start there. It also manifests itself in different ways.

 

[Awesomefoid67]

psychiatry itself can't definitively proof that a set of symptoms is one condition and not a slightly unconventional presentation of another. even the simplest ones. how can you prove that my general anxiety isn't actually CPTSD or stems from repressed PTSD? or that I have anorexia nervosa binge purge subtype and not bulimia? or BPD and not autism? or any of the above and not munchausen's? go to multiple psychs and they'll all hypothesize different sets of conditions. emphasis on hypothesize. in the end, it changes nothing. they'll always end up advising you therapy with a nice person to soothe you & a med, or multiple, from a variety of different drug classes. don't try labels; try treatments, starting from the least risky and the most likely to help.

they dont even do those over here. also i dont think treatments could help me i just wanna know whats wrong with me specifically so i can stop questioning myself constantly (or as much)

are we all autistic? Seems it at times. Lots of range on that but you could start there. It also manifests itself in different ways.

i am but thats not the primary issue i dont think

 

[Molotongo]

I understand you
Before I got diagnosed with autism I felt the same way

 

[sanctionedusage]

they dont even do those over here. also i dont think treatments could help me i just wanna know whats wrong with me specifically so i can stop questioning myself constantly (or as much)

they don't do diagnoses?

i mean thats what i just tried explaining the psychiatric industry banks on. people who need labels so badly that they'll pay $600 for a 30 minute visit where a random guy holds out a publicly available checklist and asks you to fill it out for a special word that has no quantifiable or tangible criteria besides "hmm sometimes i feel like..."

if you're not even looking for treatment, even better— they have zero repercussions for faulty or damaging treatment (aka the actual use for their doctorate) because you're not even looking for it. you just want a word. it's not like medical diagnoses that're based on concrete numbers or scans; it's literally just vague questions that can be misconstrued in any way.

 

[Awesomefoid67]

they don't do diagnoses?

i mean thats what i just tried explaining the psychiatric industry banks on. people who need labels so badly that they'll pay $600 for a 30 minute visit where a random guy holds out a publicly available checklist and asks you to fill it out for a special word that has no quantifiable or tangible criteria besides "hmm sometimes i feel like..."

if you're not even looking for treatment, even better— they have zero repercussions for faulty or damaging treatment (aka the actual use for their doctorate) because you're not even looking for it. you just want a word. it's not like medical diagnoses that're based on concrete numbers or scans; it's literally just vague questions that can be misconstrued in any way.

they do but only if you like really really really ask for one from what ive found

 

[a-lien]

same.
yeah, but if you got diagnosed that must not be the "truth". One person assume this, another person that... so you could collect diagnoses (only a joke, but it's what i experience, couldn't count them anymore.I can't take them serious, Why do everybody think they would knew it better? only by talking to you for one or three hours lol.

I've been in hospital so many times, they give you a diagnose (disorder) very easily, and they ha to ... but never make a serious diagnostic ( long guided interviews for example, many questionaries combined ...)
Maybe it's depend in which country you live. don't know. but there are differences. here you could get many many wrong diagnoses .. not really better.

I am trying to get diagnostic for autism, but maybe I'm dead before that. thats "hard to get" here. waiting for years... (never been on a list, they are closed all the time)
And if it's not autism, than I'm only an alien, left on earth all alone, that needs to get home..don't belong here. and maybe it would not change anything..