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Venting I hate my survival instinct

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heydude56

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Aug 13, 2025
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I know there is no happy future for me and I know for sure I will be better off dead but this goddamned survival instinct is the only thing that's keeping me alive

I even have everything I need for ctb right now but keep chickening out and it's very frustrating

I didn't have this much survival instinct the last time I tried to ctb(which unfortunately failed) but now it's very strong for some reason..
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
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Mine is very strong too. 1000 reasons to die but this fucking SI keeps me here.
 
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SomewhereNew

SomewhereNew

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Nov 2, 2025
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I also despise mine too I'm 30 my future is looking VERY bleak I am just prolonging my anguish because of survival instinct
 
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