Venting I hate how I'm currently unable to CTB

[ThisGameIsOverrated]

Constantly wanting to be out whilst having to live because you literally can't CTB is torture, I can't stand it I have no goals or motivation for anything because all I want is death yet I still have to force myself to live

 

[heavyeyes]

I'm sorry. I'm in the same situation

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so trapped in this existence, I get that it's really dreadful suffering when you just wish to be gone, I wish that suicide is as straightforward as just choosing to never wake again. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

 

[TapeMachine]

I understand how you feel regarding this topic. I'm in a similar predicament: zero aspirations, fleeting motivation (but only for menial daily tasks, if anything), and a host of derelict relationships that I see no point in mending (since, ya know, I'm planning to die at some point in the near future anyway.)

But the longer I feel guilted into living for the sake of my parents, the more reprehensible I feel for everything else.