Venting I HATE ALL OF MY FRIENDS

[hello_vatya]

I haven't been active on this site, but tbh since my last post my life has become much worse. My friends don't care about me. When I was in the hospital suffering, they made no effort to contact me/visit me.As soon as I got discharged from the hospital I could feel a detachment between us. Like I was on a whole other planet, I had so much resentment for them and I wanted to scream and cry and tell them how much it hurt. Suffering alone, but I couldn't. So I just pretended that everything was alright. Now I'm at a stage in my life where I don't know what the fuck to do. I always have to reach out first, and even when I do it takes a couple of days to just get a one word answer from them. We never hang out, even though I've tried so hard to make it happen. They simply just don't care. I hate admitting it, it really hurts. I've tried talking to them about this, and they said they would try and make an effort. I feel crazy because I don't think they have. Please someone respond and tell me you get what I mean/have experienced a similar thing.

 

[Slark]

I'm going through something similar. In my case, I think it's because I have autism and can't connect with people. In the end, I always end up being the friend chosen or remembered last. I've suffered a lot because of this. I just wanted to have someone who truly liked me.

 

[somewhatdeadly]

then they arent your friends.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm sorry. I understand

 

[hello_vatya]

I'm going through something similar. In my case, I think it's because I have autism and can't connect with people. In the end, I always end up being the friend chosen or remembered last. I've suffered a lot because of this. I just wanted to have someone who truly liked me.

This is so unbelievably real

 

[X-sanguinate86]

It's a long lonely journey for the accursed. You do not have real friends. You will have to confront this cruel reality. I hope you will find peace...which ever way you must.