I was trying to sleep, but my mind was tormenting me so much with all my wrong choices that condemned me to a life without a future (mostly having enrolled in a private college that burdened me with a debt far too large to be paid) that I ended up going downstairs to get some water and almost immediately began to have a nervous breakdown and decided that that night would be my last.
I put on my sneakers and went out walking in my pajamas for 1.7 km/1.06 miles to the square I used to go to as a child, since it is filled with dense woodland and I believed it would be a poetic end for myself. When I got there, I ended up crossing paths with a couple and approached them out of fear of being robbed, pretending I was there because I had been robbed.
After they left, I hid inside the square, and the knife I had brought to cut myself ended up being used only to cut my hair, since I wouldn't be able to endure the pain of cutting my wrists.
I spent another hour inside that square thinking that at some point my family would notice that I had left the house, but none of that happened. I ended up going back home because I was so sleepy, and when I got there no one had even noticed I was gone lol
I put on my sneakers and went out walking in my pajamas for 1.7 km/1.06 miles to the square I used to go to as a child, since it is filled with dense woodland and I believed it would be a poetic end for myself. When I got there, I ended up crossing paths with a couple and approached them out of fear of being robbed, pretending I was there because I had been robbed.
After they left, I hid inside the square, and the knife I had brought to cut myself ended up being used only to cut my hair, since I wouldn't be able to endure the pain of cutting my wrists.
I spent another hour inside that square thinking that at some point my family would notice that I had left the house, but none of that happened. I ended up going back home because I was so sleepy, and when I got there no one had even noticed I was gone lol
