Venting I had a bad crisis last night

[Versailles]

Previously I said that I decided to live, at least for one or two more years. In order to feel comfortable with this and live a little longer, I must leave everything behind and flee to another country where a person important to me awaits me.

The idea of traveling alone makes me afraid and panic, since there are 6400 KM of land travel and I am intensely afraid of what may happen during the trip or even once I get there.
Sorry, I'm weak, I stayed up most of the night trying to calm my anxiety and fear and ended up postponing my trip to January, where a friend offered to accompany me at least halfway.

 

[WonderingSoul]

You aren't weak. I think it's very brave to travel that much to get to another country. This situation does sound kinda scary. I hope your journey is safe and your suffering comes to an end real soon.

 

[アホペンギン]

I understand, having such a long journey awaiting you is always very stressful. Being anxious because of this doesn't mean that you're weak, it is a normal human reaction when faced with such things, making long journeys takes lots of courage and mental strength to be able to do, especially if you plan to travel abroad which proves even further that you aren't weak. I hope you manage to find peace someday, once the right time for you comes.

 

[Versailles]

You aren't weak. I think it's very brave to travel that much to get to another country. This situation does sound kinda scary. I hope your journey is safe and your suffering comes to an end real soon.

Thank you, I try to lose my fear watching videos or backpack blogs. Another reason why I have no alternative to do this is because I fulfill the requirements to ask for refuge to where I will go (in addition to the fact that said country is above in the security index). However, it is a challenge for me to remain calm, and more knowing that money is not infinite so I must use it with wisdom

 

[Nephis]

~I hope for you my friend, a safe trip to a new life

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Is it just a vague, amorphous sort of terror or do you have more concrete sorts of fears?

 

[Versailles]

Is it just a vague, amorphous sort of terror or do you have more concrete sorts of fears?

I am afraid to get out of my comfort zone and fear of the drastic change that I will do because I know that I will not adapt so quickly

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I am afraid to get out of my comfort zone and fear of the drastic change that I will do because I know that I will not adapt so quickly

It sounds like you have someone who can help support and guide you.

 

[Versailles]

It sounds like you have someone who can help support and guide you.

I have someone with whom I will go half the trip, at the end of the way my partner awaits me so I have time to control my fears

 

[L0nely]

Fear is something we all experience. Every1 fears something. It does not make you weak.
I'm glad that there is some1 who will keep you company for some part of the trip and I hope it all goes well and that it isn't too stressful on you.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I have someone with whom I will go half the trip, at the end of the way my partner awaits me so I have time to control my fears

Todo pasará bien.

 

[Versailles]

Todo pasará bien.

Fear is something we all experience. Every1 fears something. It does not make you weak.
I'm glad that there is some1 who will keep you company for some part of the trip and I hope it all goes well and that it isn't too stressful on you.

Thanks guys, you have always been kind to me, when the trip starts, I will make a thread telling everything and showing photos

 

[Versailles]

They told me that with bribes I can save myself from expulsion or deportation, that gives me peace of mind.