Venting I geniunly don't want to hurt loved ones

[Hadnafoflife]

It is my only drawback to dying i can't imagine my loved ones being broken and sad

 

[itsgone2]

I know. Over time I'm afraid I'm becoming numb to it. This morning anyway, I feel particularly numb overall.

 

[Spite]

It's pretty much the main reason I've been too afraid to go through with it. I have very few people in my life, but I just can't imagine how devastated they would be if I cut my life short. It leaves me stuck in this constant limbo - this internal battle in my mind where I'm like... I want to CTB because ultimately, if it's successful and it's true that it's like being asleep for eternity, then literally nothing will matter. But on the other hand, we really don't know what comes after death if anything at all, and, well, I don't want to hurt my loved ones either.

 

[akafuka1999]

Same. Mainly bcs of my mother. My family is overemotional. Without them I would have easy way to ctb. And drugs would prolong my life but I am too dumb to order from darknet.

 

[death or death]

for getting found after, you could try do it away from home/your loved ones. as for after that, i guess you have to compare finding your peace to the sadness of loved ones. some people go numb to the idea, some people cant imagine it

 

[kiwimochii]

Sometimes I wish I didn't care about the people around me so that ctb wouldn't be such a hard decision to make but alas we are social creatures and the need for connections overrides the need to self isolate, uptil a point atleast.
I feel like I'm slowly starting to push away the people who care about me, it would be nice if they hadn't known me at all tho

 

[yosukelvr]

i love my mom so much and the thought of her finding out i ctb'd hurts so much. if i didn't care for her i probably would be dead by now. i wish you the best

 

[badatparties]

Yeah this is a big one for me to, but i also don't watch them to watch me rot in my depression for the next 10 years either. I think they'll survive. Peoples loved ones die all the time and they keep moving on.