I flinched...

[Notaname]

I was so close today. I went to the place with the nitrogen tanks and my social anxiety stopped me. I got scared that I would make myself look stupid loading the nitrogen tank into a car and raise questions. I can't live like this but I also can't exit. I don't know where to go.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I really wish suicide is as straightforward as just choosing to never wake again. But anyway best wishes.