Venting I feel so worthless compared to other people

[nintendo64]

Every time it's a rare occasion where I'm around normal people, it just makes me want to go home and immediately ctb.

Everyone is out living their lives and happy, having relationships and careers and stories to tell, meanwhile depression has taken everything I could've had. Everything just makes me miserable, having a job, not having a job. Whenever I try and get into a relationship it always just fizzles out because I honestly desire nothing out of life except for death. I'm just not interested in anyone, being around people exhausts me. I'm autistic too so I never have had any clue how to read social cues or interact normally.

I feel absolutely pathetic just sitting in silence thinking about killing myself while everyone else is talking and having fun. I can't even hold a conversation with anyone online or irl, I'm so painfully boring because I don't do anything and I have no idea how to talk to people. I'm so tired of being a failure at literally everything I just want to die already. I feel like such a waste of oxygen, the world would be better off without me around to make things awkward.

 

[kuroshimi]

Can relate in some way.

Most people around me seems to just enjoy life and simply pursue their goals. Everyone just having fun, when I think about how miserable am I every day. I think I am broken. I don't do anything, because I can't find the strength to.

I am also pretty sure that I'm autistic, but I wasn't diagnosed yet. This may explain my strange behavior and my struggles with interactions.

I shouldn't exist.

 

[bloodandshavedhead]

This is so fucking real.

 

[persepexa]

This is so real. What I will say is if you feel boring or you can't hold a conversation maybe you're around the wrong people? The right people will make be interested in you regardless of what you say. I used to feel like nobody ever liked me or cared what I had to say then I met a group of wonderful people I didn't have to change for, didn't have to filter myself for, they genuinely liked me and were interested in my life. I was amazed. I realised I wasn't the problem, I was just putting myself in the wrong place with the wrong people. I really hope things get better for you.

 

[nails]

i relate so much, i'm sorry you have to experience this. wishing you the best, i hope things can improve for you soon.

 

[ember_]

Every time it's a rare occasion where I'm around normal people, it just makes me want to go home and immediately ctb.

Everyone is out living their lives and happy, having relationships and careers and stories to tell, meanwhile depression has taken everything I could've had. Everything just makes me miserable, having a job, not having a job. Whenever I try and get into a relationship it always just fizzles out because I honestly desire nothing out of life except for death. I'm just not interested in anyone, being around people exhausts me. I'm autistic too so I never have had any clue how to read social cues or interact normally.

I feel absolutely pathetic just sitting in silence thinking about killing myself while everyone else is talking and having fun. I can't even hold a conversation with anyone online or irl, I'm so painfully boring because I don't do anything and I have no idea how to talk to people. I'm so tired of being a failure at literally everything I just want to die already. I feel like such a waste of oxygen, the world would be better off without me around to make things awkward.

waow i relate in every way, also based hooni pfp

 

[iveseenfootage]

The most blackpilling thing is realizing it never gets better. I got on a self improvement kick when I was younger, I go to a good college now and I make money. I still feel bad. If anything, seeing the base level of happiness nearly everyone seems to have the closer I get to others makes me feel more depressed. Something is deeply wrong with us and I think people can smell it.

 

[InevitableDeath]

The most blackpilling thing is realizing it never gets better. I got on a self improvement kick when I was younger, I go to a good college now and I make money. I still feel bad. If anything, seeing the base level of happiness nearly everyone seems to have the closer I get to others makes me feel more depressed. Something is deeply wrong with us and I think people can smell it.

Something is deeply wrong with others if they're happy in this society which is based on greed, vanity, cruelty, snobbery, contempt and murder.

We're the sane ones. Hard truth but there you go.

 

[BradGuy123]

I'm sorry you're going through this. It sounds like a lot. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. I can tell you there is no such thing as normal. Everyone has issues. There are varying degrees of how intense these issues are and that varies from person to person. When you classify everyone else as "normal" you are judging your insides by other people's outsides. Those people you see are struggling with something. They just don't tell you. On the outside I have a good career, a long-standing relationship, and I joke around a lot. But I struggle a lot with fear and worry and have for decades. Most people don't know it. When I was younger I was deeply insecure and uncomfortable in my own skin. People who knew me on the surface probably would have been very surprised. I hope things get better for you.

 

[iveseenfootage]

Something is deeply wrong with others if they're happy in this society which is based on greed, vanity, cruelty, snobbery, contempt and murder.

We're the sane ones. Hard truth but there you go.

This is cope imo. Bad things exist has nothing to do with basic human evolution and biology which prioritizes happiness.

 

[InevitableDeath]

Yeah, except they're not really struggling though are they, as they seem to be all good with twisting the knife and punching down and putting the boot into others while they're all so "struggling"

Plus, they're not here.

This is cope imo. Bad things exist has nothing to do with basic human evolution and biology which prioritizes happiness.

Sorry I don't understand your words. I've tried hard but.... nope.

Please could you elaborate?

 

[webb&flow]

Something is deeply wrong with others if they're happy in this society which is based on greed, vanity, cruelty, snobbery, contempt and murder.

We're the sane ones. Hard truth but there you go.

not all happiness (in people who live in a society) (also which society?) is derived from greed, vanity, cruelty, snobbery, contempt, and... murder.

Being happy in a society which murder sometimes occurs does not mean that one is happy with murder, or that any link exists. Correlation does not equal causation.

And "we are the sane ones" is a dangerously self-serving phrase, no matter which camp you are in. Socrates said "I know that I know nothing", and I believe that is a far better stance to take than believing we are some kind of visionaries. We have to acknowledge we can be wrong and our own sights can be skewed or limited. This is crucial to learning to view things clearer, and learning to see the world closer to how it really is and works.

 

[InevitableDeath]

not all happiness (in people who live in a society) (also which society?) is derived from greed, vanity, cruelty, snobbery, contempt, and... murder.

Being happy in a society which murder sometimes occurs does not mean that one is happy with murder, or that any link exists. Correlation does not equal causation.

And "we are the sane ones" is a dangerously self-serving phrase, no matter which camp you are in. Socrates said "I know that I know nothing", and I believe that is a far better stance to take than believing we are some kind of visionaries. We have to acknowledge we can be wrong and our own sights can be skewed or limited. This is crucial to learning to view things clearer, and learning to see the world closer to how it really is and works.

Sure mate, gaza genocide, austerity genocide, cost of living doubled, eu arming up with 5% gdp weapons, suicides and deaths of despair up every year, most extreme inequality ever, and I've had two children taken, four failed attempts, an ongoing stalking campaign, betrayed by everyone I ever loved and....

What were you saying again about "crucial to learning to view things clearer"?

I'm on the verge of being banned here after a week already, so I will refrain from expressing my true thoughts on your cliche ridden post. Can I PM you?

Or feel free to back off. Socrates.

 

[webb&flow]

Sure mate, gaza genocide, austerity genocide, cost of living doubled, eu arming up with 5% gdp weapons, suicides and deaths of despair up every year, most extreme inequality ever, and I've had two children taken, four failed attempts, an ongoing stalking campaign, betrayed by everyone I ever loved and....

What were you saying again about "crucial to learning to view things clearer"?

I'm on the verge of being banned here after a week already, so I will refrain from expressing my true thoughts on your cliche ridden post. Can I PM you?

Or feel free to back off. Socrates.

your stalker should be thrown in jail; i truly do hope that somehow someway that they are brought to justice.

apologies if my post came off as cliche at all; i mean no offense by it: i know you have been through a lot of real shit and i apologize if anything i said may have came off as invalidating.

i hope that if my post has bothered you in any way that you will feel relaxed by something else in time soon. peace.

 

[InevitableDeath]

Thanks. That was a nice reply. Respect.

 

[Unlucky777]

SO RELATABLE

Only thing I want in life is death