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Die2night

Die2night

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Nov 30, 2025
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Sometimes I take a look back at how my life used to be even just a few months ago and I literally cannot believe how happy I was. I can't wrap my head around the fact that I didn't feel miserable everyday, how is that possible? How did I go from someone who's friends with everyone to someone who's friends completely ignore them? I'm the total opposite of past me. Literally all of my interests, personality traits and friends are just gone. I don't have any hobbies, interests, I'm monotone when I used to be so friendly, and even my day one friend are gone.

It feels like I just got cursed, honestly. I can't comprehend how I ended up like this when I was in the peak of my life in May-August. I'm contemplating attempting after new years because truthfully no ones going to notice, I'm a shadow now.

Even today I felt... Invisible, people who I've thought were really my friends refused to talk to me, they ignored me. there's maybe around 4-5 people who still talk to me, but it just feels like they talk to me because I'm their last resort, not because they actually want to talk to me.

Why? Just why? What did I do wrong? What's wrong with me?
 
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