I feel absolutely nothing even when faced at thoughts like CTB

[seeweed]

if i was attempting to kill myself, id really rather prefer that no people interupt on me ctb. Its not a sad thing for me, maybe for others, yes. But I view it as something close to freedom. Death comforts me more than what this world has to offer for me. I feel like death would have a gentler embrace, I dont want to live longer and just wish to spend my last remaining days happy and content because I know that life isnt for me. I never asked to be born, why do i have to live a life i no longer want to continue? i dont want to receive words that align with ideas and assumptions that my problems are just temporary. I know they arent, theyre not permanent. Im aware. I just dont see a point anymore. Ive reached that mindset where I dont have to do all of these worthless studying, eating, having fun, and even continuing to live. Its not that im tired, Im just done. I dont even feel sad or depressed anymore, I just feel numb. I feel like im lying to everyone and to myself everyday. I feel like i no longer am human, completely and utterly lost the feeling of what its like to live, to feel.

So when I really do commit, I am happier that way

 

[T22222222]

I do relate to you. I also don't feel human. And am numb. It sucks and I wish it could be changed but I don't think it can be.

 

[hurb]

im at that same state rn , but at the same time , i just watched a clip of people commiting FSH, and my stomach been hurting ever since. it felt so real and yet so scary. idk why i feel this way