I failed again

[sadgirlallonherownn]

Today everything just got really overwhelming due to a specific incident so I attempted again with ligature Strangulation bc I figured itd be a easy and quick way to go, I thought I did everything right, got a shoelace as thick as my finger that I could wrap around my neck like 3 times, put it on my neck just right below the jawbone and then tightened it quickly and firmly with a lot of pressure and then secured it with another knot but 40 seconds later I still hadnt passed out, didnt even have fading vision or dizziness, just felt pressure on my neck so I cut it off and now I have a bit of numbness/tingling in my right hand/fingers as well as my left eye feels slightly off and I hate myself even more I am so useless I cant even kill myself like genuinely how much more useless can I get what did I do wrong how can I succeed how can I not be useless for once I dont wanna be here I am seriously considering just choosing the pain and doing regular strangulation and just die suffering

 

[LighthouseHermit]

You did nothing wrong and shouldn't feel so bad. Taking your own life is insanely hard. You have made your first steps and can be proud of that. There is always tomorrow and the days after that.

 

[sadgirlallonherownn]

You did nothing wrong and shouldn't feel so bad. Taking your own life is insanely hard. You have made your first steps and can be proud of that. There is always tomorrow and the days after that.

I just feel so hopeless and the fact that I keep failing makes me dread life so much more, what if I never find my way out, what if I can never find the relief I always longed for

 

[hell toupee]

I just feel so hopeless and the fact that I keep failing makes me dread life so much more, what if I never find my way out, what if I can never find the relief I always longed for

Sadly, this is the boat a lot of us are in.

It may take some time, but you need to read the mega threads, as you don't want to end up worse off than you already are. There are a ton of variables that go in to these methods, but the answers are in there.

 

[sadgirlallonherownn]

Sadly, this is the boat a lot of us are in.

It may take some time, but you need to read the mega threads, as you don't want to end up worse off than you already are. There are a ton of variables that go in to these methods, but the answers are in there.

I have read through all of them before attempting but I probably just executed it wrong and should read again, also Im sorry for anyone thats in the same boat, its truly awful, next time Im probably gonna try the night night method, the megathread isnt as extensive but it seems more guaranteed due to the increased area

 

[hell toupee]

I have read through all of them before attempting but I probably just executed it wrong and should read again, also Im sorry for anyone thats in the same boat, its truly awful, next time Im probably gonna try the night night method, the megathread isnt as extensive but it seems more guaranteed due to the increased area

I'm very sorry you are in this club too. It sucks feeling so bad that you just want out, and there is no easy way to do that.

I really wish you the best.