I failed again (full suspension). Impossible to let me fall from the chair. The more I try, the more it seems impossible to defeat SI.

[babouflo201223]

For the third time, I failed to CTB (full suspension). I didn't manage to let me fall from the chair. The more I try, the more it seems impossible to defeat SI. Benzos don't help. I don't know what to do. It's hell. And of course I know that the main problem for all if us is SI, otherwise many of us woudn't still be there. I have many and many pills of benzos, a very big amount. I know OD of benzos it's a bad solution, at least not efficient to CTB. But I feel so lost after I failed 3 times that despair is strong. What could really happen with OD of benzos ? If at least a little chance to fall into coma and die... I just want to avoid worse sufferings but I live alone and nobody would find me before tomorrow for sure.

 

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

I heard drinking helps reduce SI in this situation cause you lose mobility

 

[Whydid]

You can't OD on benzos alone. I mean, you probably CAN. but it's very unlikely.

 

[L'absent]

You could take 20 boxes of benzodiazepines and nothing would happen, because you would never reach the critical point. Sleep for 2 days at most. They were invented to prevent people from killing themselves with barbiturates.
fenethylline hydrochloride and other amphetamines nullify fear.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally find it so cruel how it's so difficult to be permanently free from all suffering, all I wish for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.