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StairCaseMan

StairCaseMan

Want to die but too scared
May 6, 2025
9
I want to CTB by train but I still have fear and don't want my SI to kick in, are there any easily obtainable meds I could use. I want to to fall asleep or be knocked out on the tracks while having myself be tied down as well. I feel like this is the best way as it's fast and I think maybe painless, I just need to find a way to be knocked out or sleep. There is a CVS near by and I could also order stuff online but I have no idea what to get. I'm not on any medication and don't know how you would be able to get prescription meds without the note or whatever you need. Please I want to die soon but this is a must.
 
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May 6, 2025
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I want to CTB by train but I still have fear and don't want my SI to kick in, are there any easily obtainable meds I could use. I want to to fall asleep or be knocked out on the tracks while having myself be tied down as well. I feel like this is the best way as it's fast and I think maybe painless, I just need to find a way to be knocked out or sleep. There is a CVS near by and I could also order stuff online but I have no idea what to get. I'm not on any medication and don't know how you would be able to get prescription meds without the note or whatever you need. Please I want to die soon but this is a must.
How are you going to get yourself tied down to rail track? i am thinking of similar method for ctb but only by falling asleep and lying down on rail track.
 
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StairCaseMan

StairCaseMan

Want to die but too scared
May 6, 2025
9
Maybe you could get propofol online somewhere, plus there is a variety of sleeping medication out there also different types of anesthetics, by the way u could consider taking propofol by itself as a method because an overdose of it will do the job perfectly nd without any trouble technically u wouldn't even have to leave your bed.
How much would I need, after looking it up it seems super accessible and useful too, thank you, I will really look into this
How are you going to get yourself tied down to rail track? i am thinking of similar method for ctb but only by falling asleep and lying down on rail track.
Maybe not tie down but place weights and I still need to scout the area I'm gonna do it in, I was thinking if I could wrap like a belt around my legs tightly so when I get the meds to sleep I won't be able to escape or move as much (belt + weights on upper body). But if I find meds strong enough to not even wake me I don't think it would be too much of a issue
 
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StairCaseMan

StairCaseMan

Want to die but too scared
May 6, 2025
9
The amount you need is like 15 millilitres max or something which is very little (it's injectable)
I just looked in to it more and turns out you need a perception for it sadly.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also just wish to be free from this existence, I wish to never exist ever again, I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for.
 
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StairCaseMan

StairCaseMan

Want to die but too scared
May 6, 2025
9
Personally i found SN so I didn't do the whole online scavenger hunt for anesthetics and medications like propofol but i thought it was still findable.
I'm new here and not all caught up in the abbreviations but what does SN and N stand for?
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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I'm new here and not all caught up in the abbreviations but what does SN and N stand for?
Sodium Nitrite.
Nembutal.
And please don't ask me how you could source either, I don't know.
 
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StairCaseMan

StairCaseMan

Want to die but too scared
May 6, 2025
9
Personally i found SN so I didn't do the whole online scavenger hunt for anesthetics and medications like propofol but i thought it was still findable.
ok, I found SN but how do I use it, will it make me pass out, can I take only this to CTB so I don't have to do the whole train thing?
 
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