I don’t wanna finish college anymore

[Shiru]

I wanted to leave since beginning of April but mom and sis didn't let me do it so I payed tuition and kept going but now I feel so exhausted yes there are only two months left but I don't wanna anymore I just wanna quit right now I already told them mom didn't talk about it and now she is like I said nothing I feel a deep hole inside my chest and a big pain that I can't even cry or shout I just can stay in silence I don't want think more but I'm sure I wanna quit I don't care anymore I'm following my heart the thing that I'm trans it hurts too and the fact I won't be able to leave this country for better life it also hurts but I accepted it anyways I don't wanna study anymore I need a loong break maybe in another year I finish but I rather to just survive I guess no doing something that requires high level of concentration I don't know thanks for reading me

 

[DivineSpark]

I never finished anything, I was two years in business school. Had no motivation or interest, I quit it and made my mother cry. Yet, my country offers free education for its citizens. This would be blessing to many in other countries.

 

[Shiru]

Here isn't free just one public university and it's so stressful anyways my heart doesn't want this path I was only doing it for others and obligation not for me now I don't expect anything

 

[monetpompo]

yes there are only two months left but I don't wanna anymore

i really wanna quit, too. next sem i'm doing online classes so that i have less pressure on me compared to irl classes, but i honestly feel tired of college. i'm only doing community college so i'm not even at a four year yet. i'm just tired of living at my parents' house. it drains my energy and makes me not want to do anything. i feel like i'm perpetually a child and can never achieve anything because i always want to give up. i'm only doing school because it's what i'm expected to do and i know i can't get a good job without a degree. i know it's expected of people in their twenties to be in college and to be making friends and whatever, but i'm literally sick of it. i just want to be a neet sometimes and rot away in my room like trash. i feel so privileged for feeling like this.

 

[Shiru]

i really wanna quit, too. next sem i'm doing online classes so that i have less pressure on me compared to irl classes, but i honestly feel tired of college. i'm only doing community college so i'm not even at a four year yet. i'm just tired of living at my parents' house. it drains my energy and makes me not want to do anything. i feel like i'm perpetually a child and can never achieve anything because i always want to give up. i'm only doing school because it's what i'm expected to do and i know i can't get a good job without a degree. i know it's expected of people in their twenties to be in college and to be making friends and whatever, but i'm literally sick of it. i just want to be a neet sometimes and rot away in my room like trash. i feel so privileged for feeling like this.

I was a neet since late 2019 I understand I'm doing technician so isn't 4 years either I'm glad you can do online next sem I asked for the same but sadly my program isn't offered 100% online either way best of lucks for you! Hope you can achieve that