Venting I don’t think I feel sad

[anontard]

I don't know if I feel sad I just feel numb like my entire world has been muted and I can almost find comfort in it if everything bad was muted but it's not it's everything it's like I feel so horrible that I've grown used to it and I just feel numb.

Suicide feels like a calm that isn't pure numbness. I'm fascinated by what will come after my death. Will I see heaven? Or hell? Or will I just cease to exist.

 

[eupdplishlp]

I'm also fasinated by this as it's a scientific fact energy doesn't just disapear it has to go somehwere. I've watch a lot fo NDE documentries which i reccomened they are so similar to DMT experiences if not identical both are fasinating documentarys that are as close to understanding the afterlife as possible