I don't really wanna die

[artpopbestalbum]

I don't like this world at all. I feel like we are in a computer software all the time. Everything is so fake and performative. Life seems just like a difficult test day after day.

 

[MyShadow]

I don't like this world at all. I feel like we are in a computer software all the time. Everything is so fake and performative. Life seems just like a difficult test day after day.

This world is indeed a strange, strange place. There are moments in life that are so beautiful, I'm left slack-jawed and amazed. I've also witnessed thing that either disgusted or terrified me. The human experience it just strange.

Based on the title of your post, I hope you can find strength and make peace with the world. It will be difficult but that's why this forum is so important.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I don't like this world at all. I feel like we are in a computer software all the time. Everything is so fake and performative. Life seems just like a difficult test day after day.

I think a lot of people feel similar. More of a passive suicidal ideation, along with feelings of apathy and indifference. I'm currently struggling with that as I type this. I have things in my apartment, I could end it all, but I don't want to *die*, rather, I want to *not feel*.

 

[MyShadow]

I think a lot of people feel similar. More of a passive suicidal ideation, along with feelings of apathy and indifference. I'm currently struggling with that as I type this. I have things in my apartment, I could end it all, but I don't want to *die*, rather, I want to *not feel*.

This definitely resonates. There are days when my head is throwing thoughts at me that I just don't want to process and feelings I can't cope with. It's those days when I wish I could shut off my brain.

 

[claviceps.purpurea]

I think a lot of people feel similar. More of a passive suicidal ideation, along with feelings of apathy and indifference. I'm currently struggling with that as I type this. I have things in my apartment, I could end it all, but I don't want to *die*, rather, I want to *not feel*.

I spent years having passive suicidal ideation too. During the last year I switched between passive and active thoughts and I risked letting impulsiveness take over, but I've never attempted. It's only in the last few months that I'm starting to take it seriously and think if time has truly come. I don't want to act on impulse and risk to fail, but I'm also an overthinker, so it's hard to decide and plan it...

 

[58Alice85]

people themselves seem like plastic dolls running some repetitive loop program without any real consciousness

 

[flutebloom]

Yeah I think our society has poisoned the human mind in a sense.