• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
vyvanceandvodka

vyvanceandvodka

hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♡
Jan 7, 2026
114
I got in a terrible fight with my abusive mom. I've been sobbing all day. My entire body is heavy. I feel numb and dissociated from reality. I have a lot of different pills I could take, but an overdose isn't how I want to go out. I live by a trail with a ton of trees. I'm tempted to go buy a rope and CTB right now. I just want to buy a gun and pull the trigger on myself. I'm so tired of all my pain. I can't escape no matter how hard I try to get better. I just needed to vent. I have nowhere to go. :( Thank you to anyone who listened. 💗
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: livefastdieyoung, Sphinxi, cymbaline23 and 3 others
Obliviate

Obliviate

Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
1,004
That's exactly how I feel when I fight with my abusive mom. I'm ready to end it in an instant
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: livefastdieyoung, cymbaline23 and vyvanceandvodka
violetforever

violetforever

Specialist
Dec 24, 2025
308
getting into arguments with my family is the worst for me too. no one apologizes and we just avoid speaking for days so the atmosphere is awkward and bleak. trying to get better in an abusive household feels useless since any progress can be taken from me quicker than it took for me to acquire it. sorry ur going through this too i hate it 😕💓
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: livefastdieyoung, cymbaline23 and vyvanceandvodka
cymbaline23

cymbaline23

Member
May 1, 2024
36
I feel the same way whenever my mom and I get into an argument. It feels like the world is ending. I'm sorry you're going through this.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: livefastdieyoung and vyvanceandvodka

Similar threads

fallen.dove
Replies
7
Views
213
Suicide Discussion
fallen.dove
fallen.dove
moldyara2002
Replies
1
Views
117
Suicide Discussion
kufajoy
kufajoy
rotten_hrtz
Replies
5
Views
223
Suicide Discussion
vyvanceandvodka
vyvanceandvodka
emperorpenguinlover
Replies
4
Views
268
Suicide Discussion
emperorpenguinlover
emperorpenguinlover
S
Replies
0
Views
114
Suicide Discussion
sadmummy32
S