celestialstarzz
Member
- Jan 1, 2025
- 27
My best friends suicide anniversary is very soon and I don't know how much longer I can be reminded of this. Once I'm 21 I might admit myself- assuming I can smoke while I'm in there. It feels like my last resort. I'm tired of feeling nauseous. I want to just sleep forever. going into work alone is a struggle but i've got college to worry about too. My partner tries their best to help but I don't know how much longer I can just talk things true. His dead body hangs in my mind, constantly. It's so hard to stay alive when I have my SN right there. I dont feel like it's worth all the stress of trying to heal. I don't know. I feel like I've been ready to die. I don't feel like I can succeed at anything anymore because of the trauma. I'm tired.
