I decided to go to a psychologist

[sanhwou]

For a long time I've been having negative thoughts and the only way I find to alleviate this pain I feel is by cutting myself. People might think this is a way to get attention or for lack of God, but for me, this has been my escape valve since I was 13. Now I'm 20 and nothing has changed. I spent all this time without seeking psychological help, but I realized that my thoughts have become darker over time. After I tried to kill myself, it seems like I really have nothing to lose. I only have a monotonous and boring life. For me, being alive is the worst kind of hell there is. I don't know if the psychologist will diagnose me with something. I really just want to know what's wrong with me, why I feel this way, because in all these years I've lived with these thoughts. Until then, cutting myself has become a normal thing for me. I don't even know if I'll really be able to express what I feel well, but at least I want to try to do this for myself. They won't be able to. say that I didn't try to

 

[Rack.-]

That's a huge step which becomes increasingly difficult the longer you've been hiding your emotions so I'm proud of you for taking it and you should be too. I understand that many people here can be against it because it has proven ineffective for them (I include myself in there) but there's always people and people and one psychologist can make you see something others wouldn't o so in essence I'm happy for you for giving it a shot. Take care wherever you are, sending a big hug

 

[NonEssential]

I used to go to a school psychologist, but it didn't seem to be very effective for me. I hope it will be for you though.

 

[sanhwou]

I used to go to a school psychologist, but it didn't seem to be very effective for me. I hope it will be for you though.

I went once when my mother took me a long time ago and it really didn't help at all, but since this time I'm going by my own decision, I hope that this can help me.

That's a huge step which becomes increasingly difficult the longer you've been hiding your emotions so I'm proud of you for taking it and you should be too. I understand that many people here can be against it because it has proven ineffective for them (I include myself in there) but there's always people and people and one psychologist can make you see something others wouldn't o so in essence I'm happy for you for giving it a shot. Take care wherever you are, sending a big hug

Thank you very much, I hope the psychologist can help me at least a little, with that alone I think I would be a little better.