my planned ctb via sn date is the 14th because by then i will have been taking PPI's for a week. but im so sad i just want it to be over now. i will try and hold on until the 14th. i will post a goodbye thread....i just hope it works, it has to work. i also hope its peaceful as it can be. i just need to be gone, im tired of hurt and heart break
I hope everything goes well for you, that it's quick and painless. I too would really like to die as soon as possible, but I can't find 99% sodium nitrite in France.
Claymore7274
I don't want to die, i just want to stop living
- Oct 4, 2025
- 75
I'm also gonna try again the 14th!!! I wish you the best 
oh wow, what a coincidence - did you try with sn before? x sorry your at this point tooI'm also gonna try again the 14th!!! I wish you the best
Claymore7274
I don't want to die, i just want to stop living
- Oct 4, 2025
- 75
i wish i had SN, no i'm gonna go at it with partial changing my setup and see if it works, i really don't want to fully suspend myself, it hurts with partial already
im sorry to hear that , im sorry your so desperate , i get it , i hope you find peace whatever it means xx
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 46,148
Chemi
*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
- Nov 25, 2025
- 231
Whatever will happen on the 14th, I truly wish for you to be finally happy and free from your worries. It has been a pleasure seeing you around the last couple of weeks, and you always seemed like a really nice person who just got betrayed by life. I hope you find your happy place, hun <3 <3
thank you chemi
i feel the same about you :) im so sorry for your awful experiences too x
