Venting I can't do this anymore

[fruitninjamaster]

just feels like I mean I know that there's no way I'm making it to my next birthday. I can't. I literally don't know how to live in this world. I thought I was stressed over the holidays, but I went back to the normal cycle of life today and just about drove my car off a bridge. I literally drove away from what I was doing and drove for 40 minutes looking for the best place to jump I don't really know what to do anymore and I don't wanna upset my family, but there's no way I could ever survive here.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

IKTF. When I think, "I could live" it's because I've been on the couch thinking of suicide for four hours. The self-respect to get out into the world and do things is gone. I have no hope. I just want the humiliation to end.