Venting I can’t do simple tasks

[LittleMagician]

I haven't showered for around a week and I find basic tasks like that so difficult because why am I pacing the house at almost midnight instead of showering when I smell absolutely terrible and my skin is all dirty from not washing it..I FUCKING HATE DEPRESSION

 

[L9my]

I FUCKING HATE DEPRESSION

me too

 

[nyctophilia]

Same I hate it so much. And everyone tells you to just go outside and do something you like, but that's the whole fucking problem. I can't get myself to do anything and I don't like anything.

 

[Darkover]

i go months without bathing i just have a quick wash over my body parts at the sink every couple of days

 

[LittleMagician]

Same I hate it so much. And everyone tells you to just go outside and do something you like, but that's the whole fucking problem. I can't get myself to do anything and I don't like anything.

so true like if I go outside i won't be able to fight the urge of standing in front of a random bus or car

 

[wantingdignity]

I'm in recovery, but I'm still working on showering.

I don't know if you've heard of the phrase "C"s make degrees, but it applies here. If showering is too much, use a wet wash cloth. Don't beat yourself up. When you're depressed, you're playing life in the most difficult mode. You vented about it on here - that's a good step.

I have been telling myself that I deserve to feel as comfortable in my body as I can. It's not perfect, but it's gradually helping. What works for you might be something different. It will probably take a while, so be patient (I know, way easier said than done).

It might sound weird, but I would shower next time you poop or have a period (if applicable). Allow yourself to feel gross and to allow autopilot to take over.

I'm still working on it, but I'm finally starting to get a little better. I wish you the best

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I have major depressive disorder too and can't function or take proper care of myself.. I'm a mess, my house is a mess and I just want to die.

 

[divinemistress36]

Showering is a lot of work sometimes more than cleaning. I usually take baths . I got a mechanical toothbrush and a water flosser which helps a lot for days when brushing is difficult.

 

[moonflow3r]

right there with you

 

[other-ghost]

I FUCKING HATE DEPRESSION

Same. I know how good showering feels, but doing it, even if it's a basic need, is so hard to do. Brushing my teeth too, or washing my face. On my fifth day too rn, i'll force myself to shower later cz i have class. Or no, idk.


I hope you'll feel better soon, much love♡

 

[struggles_inc]

I'm not sure if I'm welcome with this kind of advice, but you've been very supportive on one of my posts, so here goes.

Last summer I was experiencing near death fun. My apartment turned into a rotting pit. I'm not even exaggerating, the trash piles were everywhere. There are still stains on the floor from the rotten mess I've let sit for months.

That was also the time when I stepped on the glass shard. I've been drinking hard liquor every day, bottles piled up, eventually one fell and broke down into pieces. I didn't care for my wound for a week, it got infected.

And then the cockroaches showed up. I started seeing a couple every day. Killed them, but they kept appearing. And that's when I understood that my carefully structured facade is falling. In a few weeks, the roaches would reach my neighbours, they would start an investigation. Eventually everyone's gonna know what I am. And that realisation brought me back. That I didn't want anyone to know the truth.

It took me a few days of work to clean everything up. I'm still dealing with the stains on the fucking floor. Combing my tangled hair for the first time in months was a nightmare and I dreaded to find a roach in there. But I made it all work.

I can't say I'm squeaky clean now, but it's decent. The thought of my reputation really motivated me. Maybe my story will help you somehow.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i hate having to do all these chores work a job fix problems to do lists etc. i hate having to work a job while disabled but i would despise working a job anyway. i hate having to wash clothes every day, dishes , take out the trash, groceries , having to feed myself 3 times a day , cleaning and fix everything, shower , etc.

there is no reason to do any of that garbage except to not be homeless , starvation , go hungry or let everything get dirty etc. i don't want to do any damn thing. i want non-existence forever

and you have to work so hard just to exist under threat of extreme torture of something very horrible happening to you , all for no reason but to get old and decay and have old age torture you

 

[suicidalcatlady]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Something that's helped me is getting wipes that are made to reduce body odor and have a nice smell to them. I feel cleaner for sure and smell way better.
What I can't figure out is my hair. Dry shampoo makes it look less greasy so it's good if I need to see people but ends up making me feel even dirtier.
Idk if anyone else relates, but I also avoid showering because the sensory aspect of it is really uncomfortable, and since I'm already really depressed and unwell I almost feel like I can't handle it. Even just the feeling of the extreme cold when you get out and wipe down, it makes me not want to do it. Or dealing with wet hair.