Venting I can’t believe this is it

[lavenderlilylies]

Life is ironic, frustrating, and depressing. I can't even single myself out when addressing how I feel, most people are as insignificant as me. I'm living a painful, pointless existence and it doesn't matter, because I never mattered in the grand scheme of things. How can such powerful emotions as those that haunt me, have absolutely no impact on anything, ever?

I keep asking myself, so this is it? This is the life I'm tormented living? As opposed to nothingness, this is what I pay the price of my own suffering to experience? I was conceived, brought into existence, literally grown cell by cell in my mother's womb, just to be born, live a sad life and then die? This is ridiculous

 

[kunikuzushi]

It's truly ridiculous. So much effort for nothing. So much pain existing, just for it to end. It's so unnecessary, and I don't understand how people can not only accept this, but bring more humans into this pointless existence.

 

[unluckysadness]

I feel you. So much effort for me too, and I lost everything. I know it's not worth anymore but I'm like a zombie who is prisoner of SI, just here for suffering and waiting to pass away

 

[lavenderlilylies]

I feel you. So much effort for me too, and I lost everything. I know it's not worth anymore but I'm like a zombie who is prisoner of SI, just here for suffering and waiting to pass away

Yeah, that's exactly where I'm at too. Not wanting to live yet unable to ctb