Venting I am sad

[lost_one]

I am depressed and sad and lonely, that makes me rambly, but being rambly makes me self-conscious, like and attention whore. Like I should shut up cause nobody cares, but if nobody cares... then I can just say whatever, because it doesn't matter, cause nobody cares anyway

I feel like I am going to CTB sooner of later, either on purpose or by accident.

I feel like I don't belong in this world.

Like there's nothing here for me.

And I can't sleep. And I am nauseous from this stupid antidepressants, that don't work by the way.

I want to be at peace with everything, but I don't know how.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I know nobody cares about me tkkkk that's why I create what's app group and I stalk every move shut up to me being called a monkey and a sub humans by racists and still beggy beggy.

I beg for likes on Facebook - beggy beggy me me me - I get insulted and still beg and no matter what I will still beg because no matter what I will always chase those who have been discarded by others even when they said they didn't want anything to do with me.

I don't mind others left overs - because to me it's better because I beg for acceptance from those who have mocked me because in my eye it's better than anything and anyone I guess that's why my ex would be beat me up and I would be shaking like a little child saying "anondirova". I use the word jealousy as a way to cope whenever I don't get what I wanted. Tantrums and insults and I take them all - I want what she has because I accept those she discarded because left overs its better it hurts because some of these even rejected me before but I had to try again. I'm an uncle tom.

My point is this what I posted is a message of sorrow from someone who I pity and that's someone said they needed to be studied "psychologically" I'm not normal I'm so desperate racial abuse, insults, mockery, references to animals I mean anything I accept.

What a sorry message from the shortest man to have ever lived.

Ps - I call others ugly as a way to cope with being called ugly and compared to looking like an animal by racists and also by others who said who is he to talk when he is not good looking himself.

I can't sleep either my obsession is 24/7 because he want all what she has I have to beg to be accepted at least being referred to as subhuman is better to me because I have always been a desperado for anything and anyone to accept me.

The message from this man is sad all around because he can't sleep due to his obsession and fixation on someone who don't even check for him and don't care on how he is doing in his life.

 

[katara]

I'm also stuck with not knowin g what to do. I'm all by myself most days, only person I interact with is my mom. And she doesn't care about my situation, no friends, never driven a car, no high school diploma. I hate it, I hate being here, I hate myself. Being homeless for a while might be my only way out..