Story I am back to being suicidal

[fox_wannabe]

I try to recover but It seam It is not working and I cannot keep waiting for it to work. It seams I will be living in state of low grade pain to the rest of my life.
I am forced do things that do not satisfy me and I am stressed about It.
World is going crazy and I am really anxious about future.
I see no purpose in it all and I like any drive to do anything.

This week I will go deep into the forest and hang myself somewhere in there I hope nobody finds me. I just want to have noose around my neck.

I hope my family will forgive me and themselves. I will just live without any note because It would be hurtful.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Im sorry life brought you to this point. I hope you make the best decision for yourself.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Im sorry life brought you to this point. I hope you make the best decision for yourself.

Thank you

 

[FuneralCry]

It is understandable not wanting to carry on when you are suffering. I can relate to how you feel. I also dread the future. Existence really is a horrible thing. I'm sorry that recovery did not work out. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[ClownMe]

Im sorry you're at this point, ive tried to recover several times and my failures each time have left me even more suicidal.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Im sorry you're at this point, ive tried to recover several times and my failures each time have left me even more suicidal.

Same... It is just a broken hope that makes puts more salt into wounds. I want to ctb but am afraid of pain and failure.

 

[forgotten15]

I feel you because i have been there so many times, but lately i just feel resigned.
I am not trying anymore, it's clearly life is not for me and I don't belong here. Never did. It's a matter of time until i get the necessary courage to ctb.
I hope you find peace no matter what path you choose, I wish life treated you better.