Venting I am an unstable mess

[OrcWitch]

I have irreparable emotional issues and I hate myself for it. My therapist encouraged me to be more outgoing and today I have emotionally melted down while my brain spins at rapid speeds I can't control. Every time I am doing "well" it's more like I've caught a brief moment stuck in a storm where my head is above water and I am breathing, before I get caught in the typhoon again. My therapist said I'm not immature, I'm just doing a "trauma response". I don't know what the difference is. I'm so tired of being told to do body scans or mindful meditation exercises instead of being handed pills that make this not happen.

 

[AtMostOkay]

I can relate to the storm you're in, and am so sorry it tortures you too. Big hugs xoxo

 

[Midgardsorm]

Messing with magical arts can do that.

But I really understand. You're not a mess, the world is a mess.

The bs of mindfulness meditation always getting in the way of a correct treatment, of course

We need to stop paying for therapy session and start going to a monastery to talk to a monk

It's free and he will offer the same treatment