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guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
I used to occasionally google painless ways to die as both morbid curiosity and to answer the unanswered questions brought up by my suicidal thoughts. I am also a frequenter of reddit and sometimes look up stuff there, and found a mention of this forum. I went here and lurked for a while and was in love with it because of how freely people are expressing their views, plans, etc. and also methods that indeed seemed pretty painless
 
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JustAnx

Student
Oct 12, 2024
132
Google. Was week or little over a week ago when i was feeling really like wanting to not be. And was researching on how to ctb with the less suffering possible. And i don't remember, though, if it was a direct link from google that brought me directly here or if was through a different site like reddit or quora.
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

A new mentality, closer to the heart
Sep 19, 2023
2,105
I was on the original subreddit. As for what brought me here . . . it was probably that my reddit account was shadowbanned from /r/depression and then perma-banned sitewide when I tried to ask why I was shadowbanned. Nuked my account best as I could and lost my venting outlet, so I probably just searched to see if the old community migrated anywhere.
 
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TransfemCutter

TransfemCutter

She/her
Aug 2, 2024
41
I think at this point, a massive fraction of the members on this site (myself included) were brought here by Tentacrul. The bozo trying to get this place taken down which resulted in a massive surge of new members. Thank you mister T for giving me a new community.
 
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deadeyesnowman

Member
Jan 15, 2024
53
A certain video in Youtube.

But since I'm already feeling nihilistic, too old to pursue anything and finding ways to off myself, here I am.
 
LapseInTime

LapseInTime

Top-notch parasite.
Sep 4, 2024
123
I was a lurker, I don't even remember how I came to find it, I think I saw a documentary and then looked into many sorts of forums. It's just now that I mustered up the courage to participate and it's very nice here.
 
guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
I think at this point, a massive fraction of the members on this site (myself included) were brought here by Tentacrul. The bozo trying to get this place taken down which resulted in a massive surge of new members. Thank you mister T for giving me a new community.
giving the video a watch right now. The things he is saying are very untrue about this forum and it's a shame that this forum was introduced to so many this way
 
Demian

Demian

Experienced
Mar 25, 2024
239
I used to occasionally google painless ways to die as both morbid curiosity and to answer the unanswered questions brought up by my suicidal thoughts. I am also a frequenter of reddit and sometimes look up stuff there, and found a mention of this forum. I went here and lurked for a while and was in love with it because of how freely people are expressing their views, plans, etc. and also methods that indeed seemed pretty painless
Same here
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,024
As someone who was with SaSu since 2018, it would be when shiddet (Reddit) shut down the SaSu subs on their platform, then after lingering for a while on another similar sub (TTG - which about a year after it's inception was quarantined and then became inactive, less accessible), I found this platform, SaSu and then decided to join. I've been with SaSu for almost 5 years (not counting the hiatus I had in 2021 until mid 2022). Ever since then, SaSu has been this safe place where I have a voice as well as being able to share my thoughts and ideas with like-minded people with regards to the right to die.
 
deadzombie6

deadzombie6

Exhausted
Oct 15, 2024
57
The first time I heard about this website was from Tentacrul's youtube video but again nobody mentioned the name of this site in the comment section so months later i again stumbled on the same video and a simple Google search brought me here
 
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InTheAbyss

Member
Jul 30, 2024
59
To make it shorter. I talked with someone I met online somewhere else for a few years about this type of stuff. They had been posting about their own struggles and I took an interest in them. Recently they told me they were a member of this forum and invited me in since I hadn't heard of is before. I didn't know there were any successors of the old ASH news group.

I'm still a bit too intimidated to talk too much and my lack of social understanding from having Asperghers makes interacting with people nearly impossible. I'm always called either a freak, weird, or creepy just because I'm different from a NT. There are several users here that I've found interesting and would like to get to know otherwise. Unfortunately a good chunk of them I only really first noticed them from their goodbye threads.
 
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DaveNotSleeping

DaveNotSleeping

For What It's Worth I'm Drowning
Oct 7, 2024
149
I was searching on yandex for ways to ctb and this site was the first result. Hadn't heard about it before surprisingly.
 
divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,712
Someone mentioned it on Reddit. I wish I would have known about it back in 2018 when there were sources to get N here!
 
kotonearisato

kotonearisato

memento mori
Feb 13, 2024
119
I heard about it being talked about in I think near the end of 2021, around the time SN reports started popping up. I used to be in a few LJ support groups way back in the day so I got curious and wanted to see if the forums here were also a good safe space of that kind. I lurked for quite a bit before finally joining myself, though, mostly because I'm terribly socially anxious lol
 
cohomology

cohomology

Member
Oct 5, 2024
51
Personally I was just going through youtube videos about suicide and a certain deliberately unnamed forum kept getting mentioned. I was intrigued and after a bit of googling ended up here.
 
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Emeralds

Emeralds

Student
Aug 29, 2024
151
I saw one of the new stories about this site. It's probably fair to say that the majority of newer members first heard about this site from one of the news stories or tantacrul's video.
 
BoredNTired

BoredNTired

Wants to sleep for a good long while
Sep 30, 2024
46
Found out about the CO method
from a story I read and was looking up detail until I found a link to a post from this forum. Got lucky too since I had just placed an order for a charcoal burner before I realized SN sounded better, and canceled it in time to get a refund.
 
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Deathw!sh

Member
Oct 9, 2024
32
Who is this Tantacrul that you guys mention and what did he say in his video about SaSu?

I found this forum when I searched duckduckgo on TOR, can't remember the specific search term.
 
maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,756
I was looking for a less violent & more dependable way to die than shotgun & happened across SaSu. Lots of nice people & good info on various methods & methods that shouldn't be tried.
I found a couple of methods that looked good to me & interacted with people on this site. I realized I'm not as suicidal anymore, probably because of the people on this forum.
I do believe I eventually will CTB, but continue to enjoy chatting in the forum so I'm still here🌹💔
 
willow115

willow115

Member
Oct 9, 2024
82
Same, method searching and reddit. I found it when it was still on reddit.
 
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lostintheloop

Enlightened
Apr 14, 2023
1,208
Was just researching some methods and it came up on google
 
WildAtHeart

WildAtHeart

tired
Oct 1, 2024
137
Looking for suicide forums and stumbled across here
 
wormbrained

wormbrained

🜎
Sep 15, 2024
68
I got curious one day and just googled something like "suicide advocacy" or something like that because I wanted to know if there was any sort of philosophy or discussion about it and then found the forum at the bottom of the wikipedia page for "Advocacy of suicide".
 
norain

norain

Member
Oct 18, 2024
55
a news item that mentioned this site while researching more sources
 
EgoBrained

EgoBrained

One day your suffering will end
Sep 25, 2024
55
The online scan of Suicide and Attempted Suicide by Geo Stone mentioned a.s.h, and on the Wikipedia page about them this site was mentioned
 

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