Discussion how to tell you are suicide ready?

[No_Body]

i am starting to notice that i am caring less about my responsibilities and other real world stuff

i think im slowly growing to be ready to commit suicide, how will i know i have reached that stage of no return

what is the stage of no return actually, and how did any of you come to realise that's where you are at

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

When you have no further goals, aspirations, copes, or people to live for. It's ultimately your free will but don't do it unless its truly over.

 

[No_Body]

When you have no further goals, aspirations, copes, or people to live for. It's ultimately your free will but don't do it unless its truly over.

i think i check pretty much all boxes here, let's wait and see

 

[sanctionedusage]

i dont know if anyones ever been 'truly ready.' i take that to mean unafraid and totally accepting of death. you can have nothing and still enjoy just breathing and having a heartbeat for a while longer. so many people on this forum have posted their final ctb thread and expressed so much fear before ultimately doing it and never being heard from again. they weren't 'ready' but they did it anyway.

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

i think i check pretty much all boxes here, let's wait and see

Wish u the best life bro

 

[nintendo64]

I've been depressed for over a decade, but death still used to scare me. It doesn't anymore. I am fully ready to just die. I feel like it's my time now and I'm at peace with that. There's nothing at all that I want to live for, I checked everything off my bucket list and I feel like I've seen enough.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I feel the same towards life responsibilities. I'm just letting so much slide. For me, I still can't envisage inflicting my suicide on my Dad. So- I can't get over that. Once I'm free though- I tend to think fear will be my next obstacle. Of failing an attempt. Of the attempt itself. I think I'll know I'm ready when I feel brave enough to actually try an attempt though.

 

[BillyBob]

Depression and just being somewhat suicidal 24/7 most of my life means I care very little about anything.
One thing that all my attempts have had in common is it is like a very calming mood that comes over me.
Then long moments of euphoria thinking about my own death to the point I start acting on it and get ready to attempt again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't need to realise anything as for me non-existence is just all I want, to suffer in this existence is an abomination to me and I find it horrific how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the agony of old age, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to escape from the evil and torture of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer.

The suffering of existing is endless, for me non-existence is just all I see as positive, in this existence so torturous and dreadful only non-existence can solve everything for me, to exist means to suffer and every second is torture to be conscious, all that existence does is just torture existing beings, this existence is always a mistake to me and I see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating and cruel tragedy, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want to erase this existence.

 

[Carryline]

I am ready but no matter what I do I always fail...I hope I will have better chance with SN

 

[TAW122]

To answer this, I'm going to refer back to the feeling I had in 2019, when I had my method ready and pretty much accepted and made peace with death at the time (which I've been yearning for, for many many years). I envisioned how I'd end up doing it and it was just a matter of whether some major event went well at that time (Spring 2019), or if it didn't, then I just went through with it. In a sense, it felt like everything was coming to a close and concluding, not much fear, hesitation, or doubt, just the vision of how I'd execute my attempt in depth. Then, of course, in 2019, things went well enough for me to cope a bit more, so I pushed the decision to CTB down the road. I always knew I had the means to escape and that brings a modicum of solace.

 

[killawithme]

i am starting to notice that i am caring less about my responsibilities and other real world stuff

i think im slowly growing to be ready to commit suicide, how will i know i have reached that stage of no return

what is the stage of no return actually, and how did any of you come to realise that's where you are at

Me too. I think I'm ready for CTB, but life's also weirdly chill. To suffer forever in the hellhole called Earth doesn't even seem that bad.

 

[madwoman]

I think it will be different for everybody. If there's still something keeping you here you want to do or you are holding onto hope, or can seek out help, or something then you should try. I think it's important to be really sure it and ready bc you only get one life.

When I first attempted, I was depressed for awhile and doing self harm and stupid attempts (like drinking hydrogen peroxide for instance I was a young teen) and then a bad thing happened that was the final straw and I didn't want to be a burden anymore and it was a long time ago, but I could remember being so ready - told my best friend to have a good life or some comment like that, wrote a letter, put my favorite outfit on, took the pills and went to sleep.

So this time, I've been planning for awhile and want to finish getting my affairs in order - and my situation keeps getting worse so I think I'm going to reach a breaking point too where I just can't anymore, I want to be at peace with the decision and I don't want to rush it.

& like someone said above, it does give me peace knowing we are all going to die anyway so I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life until something else takes me out.

 

[Rust]

The closest thing I can think of is the feeling of inevitability. It will happen, it's just a matter time. There's a lot of acceptance and a bit of sorrow about the path life led you on, but also a lot of clarity.

I say that, but I'm still here. I think if my SN didn't take 3 months to be delivered after I had that feeling, I'd probably be gone. But emotions are fickle, so here I stay to endure the torment.

I don't know if there truly is a point of no return. Maybe it's more meandering along the precipice of death until the correct circumstances come along to give you an opportunity. And if things don't work out, you wait for the next opportunity.

 

[lpdsvm]

i am starting to notice that i am caring less about my responsibilities and other real world stuff

i think im slowly growing to be ready to commit suicide, how will i know i have reached that stage of no return

what is the stage of no return actually, and how did any of you come to realise that's where you are at

For me, I am not ready yet, but there are several factors that will give me the green light or even like an obligation ahaha
1. Financial instability - basically if I go broke
2. Getting less valuable due to my skills or reduced demand - becoming useless. Do not expect me to be great in a different job right away. I am lazy and dumb.
3. (Very crucial - fine line) Legality of my stay; I live in a foreign country and not coming back ever ever there because it is not just a third world country but a big mental place.
So yeah, I have no support from anyone I got used to this fact and feel calmer. It is just a matter of time until I fully qualify for my exit ... .
I don't want to be a panhandler where tourists when passing by take photos and say how screwed I am a sort of scammer or loafer in local Facebook groups. Basically I have seen them. Not sure but some look pathetic and I see myself there sometimes but I digress and will say that they are basic factors but might be very important for someone who has no country de facto... .

I have some ways to do it but if nothing works in the end then any most available and famous method will be alright.

 

[skeptikus]

Me too. I think I'm ready for CTB, but life's also weirdly chill. To suffer forever in the hellhole called Earth doesn't even seem that bad.

It's chill now. But if things go from chill to bad or even worse, are you still considering CTB or you already accepted that suffering is part of life?

I think it will be different for everybody. If there's still something keeping you here you want to do or you are holding onto hope, or can seek out help, or something then you should try. I think it's important to be really sure it and ready bc you only get one life.

When I first attempted, I was depressed for awhile and doing self harm and stupid attempts (like drinking hydrogen peroxide for instance I was a young teen) and then a bad thing happened that was the final straw and I didn't want to be a burden anymore and it was a long time ago, but I could remember being so ready - told my best friend to have a good life or some comment like that, wrote a letter, put my favorite outfit on, took the pills and went to sleep.

So this time, I've been planning for awhile and want to finish getting my affairs in order - and my situation keeps getting worse so I think I'm going to reach a breaking point too where I just can't anymore, I want to be at peace with the decision and I don't want to rush it.

& like someone said above, it does give me peace knowing we are all going to die anyway so I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life until something else takes me out.

I find your last paragraph contradictory.

"it does give me peace knowing we are all going to die anyway" = You are kinda ok with this life because we will all die anyway.

"so I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life until something else takes me out." = You prefer to control your death rather than let something/someone else do it for you.

Can you clarify? But only if you want to.

 

[gasforme]

I am ready because I don't see a future anymore but it's still hard to actually do it

 

[Forveleth]

Every time someone asks this I always answer with: you will know it when you feel it. You just get this feeling of peace thinking about your own death. The thoughts of your method and you performing are not scary at all. It is just "Yeah, I am ready."

 

[Deepdense]

Seems more like you're becoming desensitized to the world rather than suicidal.

 

[thefarter]

in my case i just realise that the only way i can get thru the day is by reminding myself i am going to kill myself soon. it makes me comfy knowing that everything is gonna be ok soon because i am going to be buried soon :3 yayyyyyyy

 

[killawithme]

It's chill now. But if things go from chill to bad or even worse, are you still considering CTB or you already accepted that suffering is part of life?

I can only accept it nothing more.

 

[dontwakemeup]

It's difficult to detail when one is ready, everyone is different and ctb for different reasons.

I knew I was ready when it became too painful to wake up and realize I was still alive! I was so ready to go and became elated that I was finally leaving in a few hours.

My only fear was waking up in hell. Is hell true? Even faced with my belief there is a hell, it didn't matter because it was worth leaving here.

I would suggest if you are having any doubts, please cancel those plans! "
Suicide is a permanent, optional and valid solution to all your problems!"