How to say goodbye

[Theresnoescape]

Hi everyone,

How do I actually say goodbye to loved ones without actually saying anything?

I can't CTB without feeling like I haven't said goodbye. I guess the only way is by leaving notes (which I will be doing anyway).

I'm sick of this roller coaster of emotions, I know me and my ex are better off apart, I've hurt her and I wish I could take it back and start again but I can't. She does deserve to be happy and I just don't think it's possible while I'm still alive.

She's always said it wasn't my fault we've split, that it's on both of us and she doesn't hate me. But deep down I know that she does blame me, and she should to be honest, I was a useless partner really.

Anyway, don't even know what I'm saying anymore and I'm just spiralling more and more each day. So I'll stop there.

 

[diospyros.kaki]

answering your initial question.... probably notes, one last hangout with anyone you would like to do it with, leaving them something from you besides the note... these are things that come to mind when i think about this subject.

 

[Theresnoescape]

Yeah I think you're right, I wish it was as easy as saying "I'm going to kill myself now" then giving them a hug and that's it, then they all move on with there lives.

I think it's the thought of making others feel like I do now that truly stops me, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

I've tried all kinds of medications, but I've felt this way my whole life really and I know deep down that's never going to change.

My only choices really are coming to terms with making people feel bad, or keep living with these feelings until I die naturally. Neither is a good choice.