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kindawannacrylol

kindawannacrylol

Student
Jan 13, 2021
142
After doing a lot of self reflection I've realized I don't necessarily want to die, I don't want to cease to breathe I want to cease to exist, I wish my existence was never a thing in the first place, I wish I could erase any trace of me from the memories of my family, friend, every stranger I've met, I wish i could erase very trace of any encounter I've ever had with anyone, I wish I was never born, that i was never conceived. I wish I could just disappear completely, that no one would mourn my death or be affected by my passing. But that's impossible isn't it? I can't ever cease to exist, and I guess ceasing to breathe is the next best thing.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
7,163
That's an interesting way of thinking. Just "erase" everything...
Yeah, it's impossible but remember this: sooner or later, unless we're Elon Musk, we all will be forgotten.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
Time travel to the past and kill one of your direct ancestors or simply obtain any reality-altering device, take your pick. I long for the Infinity Gauntlet so I can pull a Thanos...on myself...

Maybe in another 100 years we'll have the technology for any of those things.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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Time travel to the past and kill one of your direct ancestors or simply obtain any reality-altering device, take your pick. I long for the Infinity Gauntlet so I can pull a Thanos...on myself...

Maybe in another 100 years we'll have the technology for any of those things.

You know? I'm really obsessed with time travel. I think that would make me to want to live and enjoy life for real!
 
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Wrennie

Wrennie

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Dec 18, 2019
1,546
I wish It were so simple as just drinking some white-out and erasing myself from the inside out.
 
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signifying nothing

signifying nothing

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Sep 13, 2020
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After doing a lot of self reflection I've realized I don't necessarily want to die, I don't want to cease to breathe I want to cease to exist, I wish my existence was never a thing in the first place, I wish I could erase any trace of me from the memories of my family, friend, every stranger I've met, I wish i could erase very trace of any encounter I've ever had with anyone, I wish I was never born, that i was never conceived. I wish I could just disappear completely, that no one would mourn my death or be affected by my passing. But that's impossible isn't it? I can't ever cease to exist, and I guess ceasing to breathe is the next best thing.
I have been through a process of trying to reduce my existence instead of ctb. It does help.

You get rid of some of the things you own, things you've created, written, things with your name on, photos, clothes, etc. You close down old and unnecessary accounts, eg social media, bank accounts, credit and store cards. You end relationships that aren't really very meaningful to you, both with people and clubs, organisations, etc. You basically take stock of your life and decide what is really you, who do you truly want to be. The rest isn't you, so you can let it go.
 
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mimiopo22

mimiopo22

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Dec 4, 2020
380
Dopo aver riflettuto molto su me stesso, ho capito che non voglio necessariamente morire, non voglio smettere di respirare, voglio cessare di esistere, vorrei che la mia esistenza non fosse mai stata una cosa in primo luogo, io vorrei poter cancellare ogni traccia di me dai ricordi della mia famiglia, amico, ogni estraneo che ho incontrato, vorrei poter cancellare molto traccia di ogni incontro che ho mai avuto con qualcuno, vorrei non essere mai nato, che non sono mai stato concepito. Vorrei poter semplicemente scomparire completamente, che nessuno piangesse la mia morte o sia influenzato dalla mia morte. Ma è impossibile non è vero? Non posso mai smettere di esistere, e credo che smettere di respirare sia la cosa migliore.
U P, this is my though everyday
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
I hear you. I wish I could abort myself. Too late now.
 
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All Things Must Pass

All Things Must Pass

Mage
Apr 14, 2021
557
You and everyone you know will die eventually and everyone alive today will be forgotten one trillion years from now.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,855
As soon as we die, our existence is basically erased. Even know others may remember us we won't be around to see it. When we lose consciousness that is the end of everything for us, we can no longer experience anything.
I would like to just disappear too, peacefully fading away without having to think of ctb methods.
 
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