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Specific_Milk

Specific_Milk

Student
Aug 28, 2022
103
How do you get to that mindset where you've deluded yourself into thinking that the people that love you, will just get over your death in no time at all even though you know full well that it'll probably stay with them until the day they die?

I need to fool myself into thinking that I owe nobody nothing (even though I do big time) and that the people I love will be able to carry on with their lives.

How do you perform this mental gymnastics in order to push yourself just over the edge and finally be able to leave this wretched existence?

How do you make yourself not feel guilty about ctbing?
 
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dory

dory

dorothy
Jul 1, 2023
51
"How do you make yourself not feel guilty about ctbing?"
i try to just remember that you can't always change the outcome of everything and to trust your gut, so if your mind insists on doing it then to trust it, death is sad and scary to everyone and there's nothing you can really do about it than to just accept it, hope you get the peace you want :)
 
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MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
I'm at peace, I know they will miss me and probably hate me, but I can accept that, I can accept the sad path I've chosen
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,855
Maybe a lot of people manage to go through with ctb when they just get so desperate and determined to leave. But there's no easy answers to questions like this, but I guess that after all if one doesn't manage to ctb eventually them and everyone they know will cease existing and they very likely won't even exist in the memories of those who continue to stay here, everything is destined to be forgotten about.
 

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