How to deal with waiting?

[Rainork]

I was just wondering if anyone has any tips for dealing with having to wait before being able to ctb?
I had a couple of failed attempts about a month ago, I was planning to ctb this week but haven't had sole use of my car to be able to travel to the location- I am also saving up medication but that's also a waiting game to ensure I have emough to be successful (basically I have a couple of options on methods but neither are accessible straight away).
Does anyone have any idea of things to do to make this period of time more bareable?
I'm currently stuck lying in bed day after day and I'm losing my mind! I don't know what to do with myself to ease the pain, I've tried painting and writing, I've been going on walks every day but I'm just so tired of this.
At the rate I'm going, I'm concerned I'm going to get so desperate that I'll make another attempt before I'm ready and fail again, which I'd rather avoid.
Any advice on things to make this period of time easier to deal with would be appreciated!

 

[FishRain3469]

I'm sorry you are dealing with all of that and I'm also sorry because I don't have any advice to give you on waiting. I am also waiting, and it's a Fckn bitch. Extremely uncomfortable to say the Least.

I wish you the best in whatever may happen, take care of yourself If possible. ♥

 

[eupdplishlp]

im terribly sorry for your pain and suffering. I also have a date in mind to ctb. I have a goal in mind In terms of what message I want to leave behind. there's a study that said 135 people are affected but 1 suicide. so I've been carefully planning and consructing my ending message. I hope you find pace in what you choose. My pms are always open for a chat

 

[unluckysadness]

before i go i want to clean my apartment but damn it's so messy !!

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I also feel so tired of it all, all I want is to never suffer ever again and finally be free from this torturous, futile existence, I hope you find peace.