Venting How the fuck do you get out of the house??

[trying ungracefully]

I know what you need to do. You really just have to push yourself to do it but what do you do when that doesn't work. Sometimes it isn't even an anxiety it is just that I am a recluse and hate leaving the house. I think it is because I got comfortable here and it is hard to leave that comfort when everything outside pisses me off now.

Like I really do hate people in general. I love them but hate them I guess. So many are stupid, not self aware, no situational awareness, and just ignorant. Even in the car I get pissed off with people. I have set rules in my head that people should abide by socially and when someone steps out of it I hate it.

It's not even outlandish rules. Things like cross at the cross walk if you are near one, walk on the right side of the sidewalk, don't talk on the phone in public for long amounts of time, don't play audio on the bus, don't come up to me and be weird, etc. I think they are reasonable and what a lot of people agree with but not many can do it.

I haven't took the bus this week again. I don't know what to do. Something triggered me last night to want to move out so bad but I still seem so far from getting a job because I can't get on the bus. That is the only barrier right now, I know I can manage interviews as long as I practice a few times again.

It makes me feel so hopeless and ashamed of myself.

 

[NameOfAction]

I've nothing to say, other than I've not left the house for months. I don't know how tf it is done

I like people. I like nature. I just don't go. I associate the outside with inevitable suffering

 

[ScaredCutter]

where i live, theres 2 doors and i usually just open one and sit behind the mesh door, wind comes in and the sun does too but i dont need to leave the house to go out. if i do go out, i typically just stay nearby the door since i dont wanna deal with people outside, i dont wanna be seen anyways lol. i usually sit with my cats as well while they chill at the door.

 

[katara]

I've nothing to say, other than I've not left the house for months. I don't know how tf it is done

I like people. I like nature. I just don't go. I associate the outside with inevitable suffering

I haven't left in months either. It doesn't help that my mom makes everything worse and I have nobody who would ever help.

 

[trying ungracefully]

I've nothing to say, other than I've not left the house for months. I don't know how tf it is done

I like people. I like nature. I just don't go. I associate the outside with inevitable suffering

I love nature so much. I have a forest that is easy to get to by bus near my house and I've gone before I just can't go again. It sucks because nature is one of the things that makes me feels alive and happy.

 

[rosewinds]

i know how its like, yeah, theres no shame in it
but id say maybe do stuff within the house and slowly move your way out, like- make tea every day or something? idk
i dont know your exact sich but thats what id do
could also go for short ~5 min walks to try and get used to being Outside again?

 

[SASU-KE]

What about trying to kill two birds with one stone and do dog walking for others?
Some people make bank doing that.

 

[metfan647]

I struggle no end getting out of the house. Nice weather is my only incentive nowadays.

 

[trying ungracefully]

What about trying to kill two birds with one stone and do dog walking for others?
Some people make bank doing that.

I actually used to dog walk but I got too much anxiety for some reason over time. I worried too much about the dogs safety and wellbeing to the point it was unhealthy and stressful and then the only jobs I could get were staying over at peoples houses which wasn't great either lol. But you were right I got a decent amount of money to the point my mom was questioning it.

It is a goal though, I want to volunteer dog walking to just get out and also get something on my resume