Discussion how old were you when you first attempted? (poll)

[manyhours]

ive had several attempts on my life over the years, the first time being when i was 10-11, i scoured the kitchen and bathroom cabinets for any pills i could find, thinking if i took enough of everything maybe itd do something (it did not, and most of them were likely just vitamins and pain killers)

i had 3 more attempts i can remember from the ages of 16-18, the first being an impulsive hanging attempt after a breakup, the second being an attempt at the nightnight method (when i first discovered this site), and the third being an attempt at partial hanging, i had plenty of minor plans/tests sprinkled throughout but those 3 were the most significant

im 19 now, and just had my 5th attempt a few hours ago, i thought itd be the last but i couldnt overcome SI

i only made this account a few days ago and didnt think id be alive long enough to actually consider posting anything, but now im sitting on the floor post-panic attack with no clue where to go from here, so i figured nows a good time to try to find some community and maybe relate to others's experiences

what was you first attempt like and how old were you when it happened?

 

[IdentityDoe]

Under 10 years old when I tried using rat poison to end myself. Luckily I failed or it would've been really bad... This was mainly due to stress at school... You know the whole forcing you to be in a place you don't want to be at. You've got to love it.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

my first attempts were at nine years old. i tried to suffocate myself but didn't know what i was doing very well.

 

[eeah]

never

 

[dangerstars]

10 years old, tried to strangle myself in the bathroom, my mom heard me coughing and made fun of me. lol