Discussion How far away from 'normal' do you consider yourself to be?

[Forever Sleep]

I've just read another thread where someone was wishing they were more normal. I find it an interesting idea. I imagine most of us have thought about it at some point or rather, noticed we were different to others. Can you remember when it started occuring to you that you may be different?

I suppose comparitively speaking, my perceived differences were more slight. I never really went through typical stages- the angsty teenager, the girly girl, the promiscuous student, the woman wanting a family. So- interests were usually different for my age and gender.

I suppose I also noticed that socially, I was pretty inept and socially anxious. It seemed so easy for others. I'd get scared stiff at the most stupid times- eg. eating communally, speaking in groups. Parties are absolutely out.

I used to wonder what it felt like to be them. To feel confortable at work and, just get on with their job, rather than battling with so much fear and anxiety. But then, speaking to others that appeared confident, I found out that they worried too so- maybe everyone does in fact have these hang ups. Maybe they're just better at concealing them.

What do you think? Do you feel like you're very different to others or, are there just one or two things you feel different over?

 

[Namelesa]

I would say I am far from being like an average human with things like beliefs, that i am autistic, how i act, what i am good and bad at, etc. Definitely noticed i was different in early years of school where i notice i often had TAs supporting me than others (cus of my autism). I wouldn't say i wish to be like them tho. Only just wish somethings didn't happened in my life so i wouldn't be in this much pain.

 

[Pluto]

 

[whywere]

I have been told that I am so far out there, as I think so extremely different than so many others.

That may or may not be the case, I am terrible at judging myself.

I have always found it funny how I get slammed as being "weird" and/or different, HOWEVER, folks where I have worked through the years seek me out for advice.

We are all the same and still different and that is the spark that makes each and every one of us, intelligent, in work, play, everything that helps push humanity forward.

Walter

 

[woofwag]

Oh I am the furthest thing from it lol. Trans, system, therian, furry, alt, clown, autistic, disabled, severely mentally ill, cringe, just kind of the freak ever. I've accepted it and I know I'm better off for it. No point in suppressing my truth.

 

[jose8128]

There is really no such thing as normal as it pertains to human beings. Every human being is unique and people are often unfairly critical and judgemental of others. Too quick to label someone abnormal but everyone has something about them that's not "normal". It doesn't necessarily have to be a bad thing.

 

[EternalHunger]

Well, I mentally don't fit into societal standards or expectations so there's that.

Even if I try to consider each individual unique, there's still a general trend in humanity the majority tends to follow; even outliers are only really relative to others but still mostly follow a general trend of acquired traits, while i just seem so far off from others it hurts.

There is only so many failed relationships and friendships I can take before being forced to acknowledge it must be something about me fundamentally that is just entirely broken, ignoring my autism.

 

[ConfettiSpaghetti]

I'm a disgusting tranny I am as far from normal as I can get in this world. If i try I look like a freak. If I don't I feel disgusted and depressed and no one would be able to understand why so I'd just be a freak who blends in with normal people.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

I'm a disgusting tranny I am as far from normal as I can get in this world. If i try I look like a freak. If I don't I feel disgusted and depressed and no one would be able to understand why so I'd just be a freak who blends in with normal people.

The normal people are absolute insects bottom of the barrel trash that should be rotting at the bottom of the ocean but unfortunately their words and actions have power because this world is an uncaring wasteland that accidentally made life. I understand you but even if I do , I don't know if that's enough and I don't think that's good.

I genuinely think that being suicidal or trans suicidal is like the metaphor where a person is stuck in a hole and in the end his friend jumps in the hole with him and it makes the first guy say "Why did you do that, now we're both stuck" and the friend replies with "Yeah but I know the way out" , holy cope that metaphor, it works for things that can happen, getting your desired sex and gender unfortunately can only be done half assed but for many apparently that's enough so that should also be for me, nope.

Humans will learn how to cope with everything and solve NO problems or admit that some are UNSOLVABLE. It's because they like seeing people like us suffer, deep down, they know it to be true but no one, NO ONE ON EARTH will admit this.(I don't count as admitting it because I have trauma , no healthy human can think like a traumatized one unless they are a 1/1000000 genetic freak which is basically lottery galore AND small sample size so it's pointless, we are too many to say that the few good ones that could understand us matter, no they don't, we are 8 billion, if we were 8 million, I'd agree that the few good people would matter because we might actually meet them.)

I've learned to hate because anger feels better than the emptiness caused by depression.