Discussion How does it feel after a failed attempt?

[sorrowfullyliving]

Me personally, of course at first I felt somewhat disappointed, followed by an overwhelming sense of dizziness and head swelling. After a few days my body stopped "functioning" not in a vegetative state but more like I don't wanna do anything and just lay in bed all day, which is bad because I still need to go to school, do homework, study, work part time and just doing life like normal. I know this can vary by methods, and I'm still lucky that I didn't become a vegetable but I'm just curious what you all experience

 

[Tord]

I once spoke to someone on another forum that had survived a pretty severe attempt (severe as in the usual brutality of the method they had used).

They told me they couldn't describe the feeling of it anything other than purgatory on Earth. Especially if you're in pain after what had happened. They also told me they could barely believe it, that they were still there. ''Being alive was a total shock'' a real quote.

I can't tell anyone if this is guaranteed to happen when you wake up after surviving ctb. I've never attempted to catch the bus (yet), but it made total sense to me. Still does - 4 ish years later.


I don't know what I would do if I failed. You're preparing for life to be over after all. I have respect for basically anyone that has survived an attempt before.

 

[sorrowfullyliving]

I once spoke to someone on another forum that had survived a pretty severe attempt (severe as in the usual brutality of the method they had used).

They told me they couldn't describe the feeling of it anything other than purgatory on Earth. Especially if you're in pain after what had happened. They also told me they could barely believe it, that they were still there. ''Being alive was a total shock'' a real quote.

I can't tell anyone if this is guaranteed to happen when you wake up after surviving ctb. I've never attempted to catch the bus (yet), but it made total sense to me. Still does - 4 ish years later.


I don't know what I would do if I failed. You're preparing for life to be over after all. I have respect for basically anyone that has survived an attempt

Like purgatory on earth? May I asked what method they had used?

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

I've survived some very intense attempts where I've flatlined and coming back ... is traumatizing. It's painful and realizing over and over thah you failed only makes each attempt after feel that much more desperate.

 

[theboy]

You feel a shock
You just want to stay in bed all day. No thoughts. No desire to eat. You feel a subtle sadness (some people feel ashamed)

 

[Lyscx]

Me personally, of course at first I felt somewhat disappointed, followed by an overwhelming sense of dizziness and head swelling. After a few days my body stopped "functioning" not in a vegetative state but more like I don't wanna do anything and just lay in bed all day, which is bad because I still need to go to school, do homework, study, work part time and just doing life like normal. I know this can vary by methods, and I'm still lucky that I didn't become a vegetable but I'm just curious what you all experience

It feels surreal. I failed few hours ago. Im not damaged or anything i think im just poisoned by the gas i inhaled(i simply turn it on and stayed inside for a long time) I made a thread about failing where i explained what happened but after failing i felt like surreal. Like its not real. I was so close to non existence but now im here again. I dont want to do anything i also feel a bit scared and overwhelmed. I have ocd which also fucks me alot by keep making me think that i did allat for attention.I hate how i feel rn its too quiet and its already sunrise and yet im alive and alone.

You feel a shock
You just want to stay in bed all day. No thoughts. No desire to eat. You feel a subtle sadness (some people feel ashamed)

Yea i also felt shame but i think its fueled by this curse of a mental disorder.

 

[Tord]

Like purgatory on earth? May I asked what method they had used?

Being hit by a train..... ended in many health complications which were painful to them, of course.

 

[sorrowfullyliving]

Being hit by a train..... ended in many health complications which were painful to them, of course.

They must be really brave, I'm too afraid to be near a train when it's moving let alone being hit by it. I hope they'll find peace from the suffering in this world

 

[katara]

You feel a shock
You just want to stay in bed all day. No thoughts. No desire to eat. You feel a subtle sadness (some people feel ashamed)

I already feel this way