Venting How does anyone get through a single day?

[kunikuzushi]

This is so unbearably painful. I'm diagnosed with bpd and I've been living in constant torture for as long as I remember.

I seriously don't know how I'm supposed to stay alive any longer. I'm either tortured from the hell of being alone or tortured from thinking everyone hates me and is going to leave me. On top of this, I can't feel positive emotions from anything when I'm alone. I'm going insane.

I have my SN. I've been planning my death for 6 years, but I'm stuck here because I can't hurt my best friend, my boyfriend, and my mom. I really can't. But how am I supposed to get through another day? Every day I get closer to thinking I need to just finally do what's best for me and end this pain.

 

[kopebaldy]

Put my head down, stop thinking too much, one foot in front of another, keep walking until the day I can't anymore.

Because what else can people like us do?

Life is already tiring, if I flip out and let my emotions loose, it will get harder.

 

[58Alice85]

I consume around 500 mg of caffeine a day in coffees and colas

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Simply being tortured until the sky gets dark and the day comes to an end. The day is filled with terrible ocd symptoms, emptiness, emotional numbness and also with a wish to finally being freed from this nightmare by hanging myself.
And that happens day after day after day after day - an endless circle of suffering