Help How do you get less scared of the nothingness?

[kosmischerunfall]

So, i'm experiencing unbearable pain, and want to kill myself with helium before school starts.

One reason I'm scared of and also that's why the SI kicks in is: The BIIIG FEAR of Nothingness.

I know it doesn't make sense being scared of it because, we won't be there to be scared. Our Consciousness completely vanishes, but my mind still somehow thinks it can imagine that and makes up countless of possibilities what could be after this life.

How do you manage to cope with this?
Please help me it's so important to me:(

 

[Forveleth]

For me existence us suffering. If I no longer exist, I can not suffer. This is a very comforting thought to me. I see nothingness as a relief from suffering so it is actually a positive association in my mind.

 

[w1ngedpearl]

I completely understand you. The fear of nothingness was one of the reasons I failed my recent CTB attempt. I was afraid because I kept imagining all the "good" things I had in my life, my mind told me "It wasn't that bad, you have good parents and there are still people who care about you", "There are still some enjoyable things you saw or knew", "Are you ready to leave them all forever?". It was extremely annoying. Guess it'a part of survival instinct. I decided to try again when things will get worse. In my opinion, the best anti-SI thing is when everything becomes so insufferable that you look forward to diving into the nothingness because it will end the suffering forever.

 

[Andarna]

Personally, I like to redirect my thoughts from "after" to "before".

Instead of focusing on what it will be like after death, I think about what it was like before I was born. Because nothingness has already happened. When I meditate on the fact that I once did not exist, I feel neither fear nor sadness. I have no regret or sense of loss.

The nothingness becomes familiar, and my mind calms down a bit.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

only Non-existence forever can guarantee never suffering so badly its a trillion times worse than the worst u can imagine

i didn't have any problems for 13.8 billion years before i was born because i didn't exist. i never suffered nor had a chance of suffering . it will be like that again after this abomination my brain dies.

if u see this world , life , existence as the evilest worst things why wouldn't i want to not exist asap? of course i do. of course i want to reach the safety of eternal Non-existence as soon as possible

i fear remaining alive as only then can i suffer extreme torture

 

[Forever Sleep]

It wasn't scary when I was unborn- as far as I remember. I imagine death will be the same.