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onthefence

onthefence

Actually… sobbing on the floor
Dec 31, 2024
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I am leaning towards leaving but would like to understand how people find the will to live/ actually decide to pursue life instead of death? I'm so very tired of being on the fence and know that deciding one way or the other would be a huge relief.
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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I think setting positive goals makes you have something to look forward to. I always have something I'm working on.
 
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sad.girl

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Jan 6, 2025
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I am leaning towards leaving but would like to understand how people find the will to live/ actually decide to pursue life instead of death? I'm so very tired of being on the fence and know that deciding one way or the other would be a huge relief.
I'm still on the fence too, but the main thing keeping me here is the people I love and my cats. It sucks living for other people, but it's a starting point and it's kept me here for years already. Another thing that tends to help me is imagining what I would want my life to look like in a perfect world, and while I know it's not possible, it gives me a little hope that maybe one day my life could look somewhat similar to what I imagine. Trying to keep busy at all times also helps me, though it's difficult and if you're not careful you can run yourself ragged and not be able to stay busy, which keeps you in a viscous cycle.
 
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5karlet

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Feb 13, 2024
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I am leaning towards leaving but would like to understand how people find the will to live/ actually decide to pursue life instead of death? I'm so very tired of being on the fence and know that deciding one way or the other would be a huge relief.
i wish i ctb'd when i had the chance but now thats out the window. now i just wanna live as a junkie. so now my main goal is to get rich and do just that
 
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jinx <3

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Apr 12, 2023
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I don't really have a will to live, but I imagine that setting goals and living for others are helpful. My advice is to focus on the future, but not in a bad way. Spend some time thinking about where you want to go in life, and set goals to get yourself there. If you don't know where to start, making friends is always a good idea, and it's not as hard as it sounds. Friends are good because they influence you as much as you influence them. I'm currently trying to change who I am because I hate myself, and that's pretty hard to do. But I've been setting goals and finding inspiration, and now I at least now who I want to be. That has given me a pseudo will to live. I'm slightly more okay with not dying for now. Hope something I said helps somehow. I hope you decide to stick around for a while <3.
 

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