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chocone

chocone

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Feb 14, 2026
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Genuine question. I only feel things physically, and usually I don't even notice i'm upset until I start crying or having some other physical reaction like nausea or wanting to smile (usually when I'm reading something). Do emotions feel like something other than the physical feeling? Am I supposed to be able to notice what "sadness" is by itself and unattached to my crying? Is it the same with all the other emotions? People describe it as welling up inside them but is that a physical sensation or something else? I don't get it. I don't feel sad but I want to die. I don't feel angry but I'm lashing out and going over ways to hurt people in my head. Isn't that strange?

I've lurked here for a little bit before making an account and I always notice people saying how upset and hopeless they feel. I know it'd probably be bad for me, but at some point I want to know what that feels like. I just want to know what it's supposed to be.
 
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ScaredCutter

ScaredCutter

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you can feel a build up inside from emotions, it happens when im angry, sad, jealous or happy. yk, a lump in ur throat because ur going to cry. i feel some heat when im angry and when im sad, its usually feels like my organs drop and i get cold sometimes. happiness makes me feel sorta warm but, i cant contain it, my eyes light up and i smile, sometimes it feels like my heart beats more too. its hard to explain how one feels their emotions since its different for all.

when people feel empty, hopeless they typically feel this empty vast inside of them, like their heart is missing or they have a hole inside of them. that, no matter what they try, the feeling stays and it can grow bigger, eventually consumes u. but thats just mostly in my experience and what ive been told by somebody. its a strong feeling though. im sure someone will describe it way better.

shucks, i tried seeing if there could be smth related to what ur talking about but, i have no idea if emotional blindess/alexithymia may be it. if it doesnt feel related to ur situation, i hope therell be an answer out there!
 
NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay â‹… he/him
Nov 21, 2024
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Look up other people's experiences with the more severe end of the spectrum of depersonalization, I think that might be what you're looking for.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
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Hmmm dont like em in myself since I feel so intensely, I wish didnt feel but it isnt good either.
 
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IWillSurvive

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Aug 28, 2023
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Genuine question. I only feel things physically, and usually I don't even notice i'm upset until I start crying or having some other physical reaction like nausea or wanting to smile (usually when I'm reading something). Do emotions feel like something other than the physical feeling? Am I supposed to be able to notice what "sadness" is by itself and unattached to my crying? Is it the same with all the other emotions? People describe it as welling up inside them but is that a physical sensation or something else? I don't get it. I don't feel sad but I want to die. I don't feel angry but I'm lashing out and going over ways to hurt people in my head. Isn't that strange?

I've lurked here for a little bit before making an account and I always notice people saying how upset and hopeless they feel. I know it'd probably be bad for me, but at some point I want to know what that feels like. I just want to know what it's supposed to be.
I think I am in a similar situation. I also dont feel the "feeling" anymore, I just observe the physical reaction my body has to those "feelings". I did feel stuff in the past though, so I can tell you about it a bit if thats what you want. Do notice that this is my experience, so I cant promise its the same for everyone.

Sadness, the profund type, feels like if someone is pushing you like 10-15 kgs in yoir chest. A constant discomfort and pressure that just wells up until you break up and cry, where the pressure lowers a bit.

Anger makes you frenetic and tunnel visioned, illogical and thoughtless. Not a great state to be in, but it is a good way to avoid sadness, since its "less painful" and it only requires a change in perspective (at least to me).

Happiness is quite nice. I cant quite describe it accurately enough to make it justice. Its a similar pressure to sadness in the chest, but in this case its pleasant, and it kind of feels like it starts flowing into the rest of your body. I think this is the reason most people are addicted to life. I find it understandable but unnecessary.

My recomendation for trying these out would be going to a psychiatrist or someone similar, so that you may get some meds. I started 4 months ago and I have felt the happy feeling (the formerly described one, not the smile we both know) once in the 13th of december. It should be a good experience to try if you can, it didnt stop me from being suicidal, but it did make me want to experience it again.
 

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